What made you unhappy today? v4.0

[MadeleineG]

My house got paint-balled.

[justmeinoz]

You have nothing to apologise for Willow.  You know who you are and what your needs and wants are.  If others don't get it that is their problem.  Have a Happy Birthday sis.

Karen.

[Lauren5]

Don't have enough space to fit all the useless crap that was gifted to me for christmas in my suitcase. I don't want to hurt anybody by leaving anything here, but it would just be given away once I return anyways.

Seriously, I have no need for a popcorn popper. I have no room in my room for it either, or electrical sockets!

Packink also made me unhappy when I packed my unworn dress. I don't know when the next time I'll get to wear it is. I'm sure I can never wear it ever in front of mom.

You have nothing to apologise for Willow.  You know who you are and what your needs and wants are.  If others don't get it that is their problem.  Have a Happy Birthday sis.

Karen.

Just feels like I'm breaking my parents apart with this, with their totally different attitudes on it. With the fact dad is sleeping on the couch the whole time. I know that I have done nothing wrong, but it just feels like being me is causing issues.

[Cindy]

Don't have enough space to fit all the useless crap that was gifted to me for christmas in my suitcase. I don't want to hurt anybody by leaving anything here, but it would just be given away once I return anyways.

Seriously, I have no need for a popcorn popper. I have no room in my room for it either, or electrical sockets!

Packink also made me unhappy when I packed my unworn dress. I don't know when the next time I'll get to wear it is. I'm sure I can never wear it ever in front of mom.

Were you able to be you on your birthday Honey?

[Lauren5]

Were you able to be you on your birthday Honey?

No
I was told it was "my" birthday, not Willow's.

[Cindy]

No
I was told it was "my" birthday, not Willow's.

I'm so sorry. I hope I didn't add to your pain, my apologies.

One day you will be yourself in everyday life, soon honey soon!

[Apples Mk.II]

Feel like spiralling into a black hole of manly darkness.

I still have 4 days left without HRT, but each one is worse than the previous. I am already sweating like crazy, as I used to do before the hormones. I find little relief in presenting female while feeling rotten inside. Also, I am torn between going or not out in New Year's Eve. I already have the black dress and I only need to find some heels my size, but...

- Going Out: Risk of record GD, as happened last year
- Stay at home: Feel depressed and crying all the night, blaming everything and everybody.

I'll start taking the hormones again in the morning of the 31st, but I don't think I will feel the effects so quickly.

[Lauren5]

I'm so sorry. I hope I didn't add to your pain, my apologies.

One day you will be yourself in everyday life, soon honey soon!

No, it's fine. I've already been through this round of disappointment, it doesn't affect me as much this time round. And it's not you causing me the pain, it's my mother. I don't know what her problem is. Is being transgender a threat to her womanhood or something?

It may be sooner than you think; if I can get into the gender neutral housing at school, I'm amending my student ID and going full time.

Feel like spiralling into a black hole of manly darkness.

I still have 4 days left without HRT, but each one is worse than the previous. I am already sweating like crazy, as I used to do before the hormones. I find little relief in presenting female while feeling rotten inside. Also, I am torn between going or not out in New Year's Eve. I already have the black dress and I only need to find some heels my size, but...

- Going Out: Risk of record GD, as happened last year
- Stay at home: Feel depressed and crying all the night, blaming everything and everybody.

I'll start taking the hormones again in the morning of the 31st, but I don't think I will feel the effects so quickly.

You'll get through it, hon, I know you can!

[Apples Mk.II]

ou'll get through it, hon, I know you can!

Not so sure... Also feeling like crap. I still can fit my tights, but my cardio resistance is long gone.




Aaaand.



No make-up, unshaven, no bra or whatever. In fact I haven't even washed my face or showered. I just took 10 minutes spinning to see If I still could hold. Not a lot. I'll have to start slow again.

BTW:



If you try to translate it, you will find a nasty surprise...

[JRD]

Looking at the vanity topics. I think I need to add them to my ignore list. Its depressing as heck for me.

[Lauren5]

Upset stomach, general unhappiness, and I think I met my dad's new (not sure since when there together but I know it wasn't the one I knew of) girlfriend and I'm just feeling even more sick.

[Charley Bea(EmeraldP)]

Looking at different forms of makeup and its making my head spin can't figure most of them out how to tell which ones suit my skintone as I do not know what my skintone is and I am not at a point where I feel I can go and ask someone so basically I can only blind buy.....if that is the right term. Frustration level growing. Also knowing that I know of other trans people around where I live but don't know any in person is bothering me alot also.

[Devlyn]

Looking at different forms of makeup and its making my head spin can't figure most of them out how to tell which ones suit my skintone as I do not know what my skintone is and I am not at a point where I feel I can go and ask someone so basically I can only blind buy.....if that is the right term. Frustration level growing. Also knowing that I know of other trans people around where I live but don't know any in person is bothering me alot also.

This is gold: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,107457.msg806509.html#msg806509

[rinaballerina]

Being alone all day. The few friends I have in this town are gone. I just saw my family but they are gone as well. My sister who used to live here is gone. I can't connect with people, I always feel like I don't belong. It feels like my support network is crumbling.

[Amelia Pond]

Missing two weeks of electrolysis because I still have this stupid cold.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Missing two weeks of electrolysis because I still have this stupid cold.

I wish I could complete my electro but the one local tech around here sucks.

My DVD player has bit the dust.

Crap.

[Marieee]

Amelia Hope you feel better! Not to rub it in but I'am the only one in my house who doesn't have a cold. Weird because I am usually first to get sick.

Oh and realizing it was Friday only 2 hours ago...

[Lauren5]

Lots of wrong things going.

Opened my suitcase and there was a note from our most excellent friends at the TSA saying that they had hand inspected my bag because they thought that I had prohibited items. I'm already an embarrassment, now I'm embarrassed as well.

Carried some heavy things down stairs and I think I pulled a muscle in my arm; I can't even lift my coffee cup.

Heading to a big family gathering, and dad wants me to come out to family there. Not going to happen. I've already made some stupid decisions regarding transition, I don't want to make any more.

[MadeleineG]

The driving was so wretched last night (high winds + lots of snow = zero visibility) that we ended up stopping for the night at a random motel on the highway.

Oh well, better safe than dead.

[Amelia Pond]

Realizing that my wife and oldest son will never understand how "innocent" things they say can cut me so deep.