Hi
Ive been a member for a few days here and I thought I should properly introduce myself.
My name is Philina Im a 19 years old half time mtf transexual.
Just like many of us I was struggling with myself for the past years if not all my life, even when I realised what was really happening to me, I still took my time before coming out , I was only scared...
But with the help from people like you I managed to end my agony and actually feel hope about my future
So I came out to my mother last year and started seeing a gender therapist , things werent going well cause my mom was in a huge denial and my therapist would only give me antidepressants telling me that there is a long way till hormones ( meh ) , even though I was sad I was determind to not give up so I changed therapist and tried to convince my mom to accept me, as it turned out this decision was a success...
my mom accepted me and my therapist helped me to start building my new self and life...
To make a long story short I have been taking antiandrogens for a month now and on a couple of days Ill start estrogens...
Im very glad ,in fact I dont think I ve ever felt that happy before
So I wonder are we cursed or actually blessed?
The hapiness of being yourself after living in despare for years ,its the best kind of happiness... especially when people support you
My dream is to be able to live a normal life as a girl , nothing more , I dont care if im rich or poor or anything else, only that.
As of my hobbies , I enjoy video games (there I could be a girl as long as i want :/ ) , playing the guitar and anything it has to do with japan (music, anime , language etc)
Nice to meet you all, Im gonna leave you with a song I wrote when I was at my darkest moments , I hope you like it.
