Havent posted much on here for a few weeks, so I thought I would give those that are interested an update on what is happening with me.
Things have stalled. I will not be starting on androcur until January, as a result of a discussion between me and my doctor. Weight remains an issue...while I have been losing it, I am not losing it as quick as I would like. At least my blood pressure has remained in the normal range (high end of normal though), which is good.
The topic of my transitioning has not really come up in conversation that often with my wife, after I told her. But when it does, it is usually some kind of comment from my wife, but not a bad comment, more a curious comment.
Depression continues to hit me from time to time, often lasting a couple of days. Sometimes starts for absolutely no reason, sometimes due to stress at work, and sometimes because I see a female walking down the street, and I start thinking...I wish I had breasts like those, or...why cant I have that body, or...I love that top/skirt/dress...hope it would look good on me if I was female...and other stuff like that. It can also come on from looking at some of the before and after pics on here, and thinking to myself "I will never look as good as that person, I will always look like an ugly mutant" or things to that effect.
It doesn't help that there is a clothes shop across the road from work that I see every day, with an outfit I adore on a mannequin in the window, but I have banned myself from my anymore female attire until my weight gets down to a level I am happy with, my stomach gets to a level I am happy with, and until I can see what the hormones do to my body and appearance. I did however buy a couple of wigs off ebay.
Still trying to organise a trip to a female friend's place so I can try on some of her old clothes (she has lost a ton of weight).
Had another bout of laser to remove hair from chest and stomach...not enough re-growth to worry about arms. Looking at starting face soon.
Still trying to organise a day with a female workmate where she can help me learn about makeup.
Not much else to report...don't have the confidence yet to post an image on here yet to find out whether any of you think I have a shot at being passable one day.
