hormones have changed my perspective on my "private" time....lol

[Madison (kiara jamie)]

so its been about 8 months on hrt now and i have been noticing that when i try to watch porn to get off, i just go in about 2 mins and think to myself "omg this is so ridiculous, its unrealistic and so obviously faked, theres no passion, or enticing excitement", while before i would just zero in on the physical interaction void of emotion or thought.

so the other night i started to read some erotic literature, and wow, my mind is officially blown, i would read a short story and the description of lust and emotional involvement was mind altering, i have never been interested in reading anything longer that a paragraph let alone and entire short story, and i had spent 3 hours of internal emotional excitement and constant full body goosebumps and shivers

just thought i would get this out there for the girls starting hrt that are noticing a lack of libido in there life and also wondering if there are any other female dirty secrets that someone could share with me

[Ashey]

Yup! I've watched like, two porn vids since starting HRT. To put it in perspective, I used to watch stuff almost every day and looked at a LOT of pics throughout the day. I was just horny all the time. But now, porn doesn't interest me. But I do read some erotica now, and... write a bit of my own. >_> It's weird that I'm doing that now, but I'm just going with it lol. I never would have even considered doing that before, but whatever works I guess. xD It's also different in that, I can read the whole thing. Same with fantasizing. It's not just a brief 'scene' involving sex so I get off, it's like a whole story in my head (how did we meet? what connection did we make? where were we and what did we do before the sexy stuff?). And even then I don't always get off afterwards. Actually, I got a vibe recently and I was so excited to get it and I've only used it once lol. Just isn't a priority. Getting off is no longer a daily necessity, but a nice release on occasion.

[suzifrommd]

I had a similar experience early on. For some reason in recent months my taste for porn has increased again. But there is definitely more of a mental component. And it does happen that I'll just get disgusted by porn (often because it's obvious they're acting), whereas on male endocrines, that was rare.

[MaryXYX]

I was more of an occasional user of porn than a regular, and somewhere between the visual and the written.  After starting hormones I've become a non-user with next to no libido.  I can't remember the last time my "boy bits" were functional, but I'm pretty sure they aren't now.  Roll on the day when I no longer have them.

Another interesting effect is that although I was always strictly hetero as a man, and initially lesbian as a woman, I'm now somewhere in the "not sure - possibly bi" area.  I don't know if I would move all the way to hetero woman but it's possible.

[Madison (kiara jamie)]

I was more of an occasional user of porn than a regular, and somewhere between the visual and the written.  After starting hormones I've become a non-user with next to no libido.  I can't remember the last time my "boy bits" were functional, but I'm pretty sure they aren't now.  Roll on the day when I no longer have them.

Another interesting effect is that although I was always strictly hetero as a man, and initially lesbian as a woman, I'm now somewhere in the "not sure - possibly bi" area.  I don't know if I would move all the way to hetero woman but it's possible.

i was the same to the point of concern, the T would make me always driven by physical satisfaction, ive heard the the release of orgasm drops the testosterone level temporarily and that trans ladies live for that moment of peace, also it might just be a dopamine addiction lol, but i used to be on cypro before and my libido dropped like a rock in a lake but now that im on spiro i have a very active libido that doesn't need to be satisfied all the time but is definitely, im a little scared if i had a close interaction with someone im attracted to because i think i would go bananas... pun lol

[Riley Skye]

i was the same to the point of concern, the T would make me always driven by physical satisfaction, ive heard the the release of orgasm drops the testosterone level temporarily and that trans ladies live for that moment of peace, also it might just be a dopamine addiction lol, but i used to be on cypro before and my libido dropped like a rock in a lake but now that im on spiro i have a very active libido that doesn't need to be satisfied all the time but is definitely, im a little scared if i had a close interaction with someone im attracted to because i think i would go bananas... pun lol

I personally am finding sex has gotten a lot better since starting hrt because my body has gotten a lot more sensitive. Whereas my goal as a guy was to orgasm asap, as a girl now it is simply to enjoy everything, pleasing and being pleased by my partner. I can go on and on and be satisfied without needing to orgasm plus I find now without the T orgasms have gotten a lot weak to the point where I no longer care but so many other doors have been opened for me. I now much prefer to read romantic erotic stories as there is much more passion and fun than in porn. I am also finding I like reading about other transgirls though it's hard to find good stories lol

[Madison (kiara jamie)]

ya the one thing i find is that i don't find transgirl related porn to even excite me, i just feel so degraded becuase they always focus on the male member on a female body, which i hope i don't offend but i don't appreciate, it makes me feel like im not a human anymore, just a sexual object that has no life inside, ugh thinking about it makes me think how they take advantage of preop girls that can't afford to live otherwise, sorry

[Riley Skye]

Let me specify a bit. I've found a few stories that do not focus on the girls privates but rather the girl herself, honestly those are few and far between but they are out there. Unfortunately a large majority are just horrible and written by ->-bleeped-<-s so the rare gems are nice to read actually. Sorry if I didn't explain! I personally like reading a story where I can relate to the person but not something that objectifies me, there needs to be better stuff.

[Ms Grace]

I found porn pretty boring especially after I started HRT the first time. My tendency is to always relate to the women and, except in rare cases, there was very little I could relate to as the women are generally never depicted as anything other than a sex object. Although my libido returned once I stopped HRT it never really reached the levels I'd had pre HRT. Not that I've bothered for months, but I definitely find that erotica (visual or written), especially when focused on the woman/women and real pleasure and beauty is about the only thing that does it for me at the moment...and I couldn't be happier about that!

[MaryXYX]

ya the one thing i find is that i don't find transgirl related porn to even excite me, i just feel so degraded becuase they always focus on the male member on a female body, which i hope i don't offend but i don't appreciate, it makes me feel like im not a human anymore, just a sexual object that has no life inside, ugh thinking about it makes me think how they take advantage of preop girls that can't afford to live otherwise, sorry

I feel that way too.  I was without a job for the last 11 months and I did have one suggestion of a £400 (about $650) an hour job working from home.  Legal, but certainly not moral.

btw, they don't use spiro here.  The endo thinks it stunts breast growth.

[Sydney_NYC]

Orgasms are a lot more mental than before since starting HRT. I don't have the desire as much, but when I do, oh WOW or WOW they are incredible and last so much longer

[Ms Grace]

btw, they don't use spiro here.  The endo thinks it stunts breast growth.

Really? Not my experience...

[Carrie Liz]

The only thing about porn that used to appeal to me was that it allowed me to imagine in much more vivid detail that I was the girl, because there her anatomy was right in front of me.

Honestly, now nothing at all does it for me. None of my old methods of "getting off" do it for me anymore. I'm just not turned on by watching videos now, and none of my old fetishes do it for me either. The only thing that really does it for me is imagining that I'm being intimate with someone... imagining arms wrapping around me, feeling all over every inch of my feminine body, and playing with a certain sexual anatomy that isn't there yet. And therein lies the problem. Those damned things just keep getting in the way, ruining the fantasy for me, and I can't even make it to the peak anymore because my genital dysphoria makes it impossible to get lost in the fantasy to the degree necessary to reach orgasm. I haven't made it to the peak through manual stimulation in over 3 months now. I can't do it anymore. Nothing that I've tried has worked.

[livinit]

I had the same experience with the introduction of hormones. Same drop in libido. I would notice, however, that it was a little thought in the back of my mind showering before sleep....I guess there was not much on my mind and daily issues and problems not at the forefront..so in that space, I would have a little 'inkling' of a notion that I might like to feel a little pleasure later..and that thought sort of would stay with me until bed later. Then, any fantasy I might have...would start way before the sex part..say at dinner..red wine and a candlelit corner table in an Italian place with my lover, chatting/footies, and being together..yes that fantasy started there, and something like THAT would begin to really warm my mind. I would imagine a fully intimate experience that covered the whole evening. Not just the sex anymore. I had to often block out the private parts still down there, so during, I began practicing my new mindset of imagining I was post op and I was working with the new bits. I would often work with the old bits in ways not unlike working with the post op bits, using my Body Wand as I would be using it post op and hands off the traditional 'old' methods of pleasure. This helped with the dysphoria and I believe my 'visualizing/practice' will be beneficial post op in 'reconnection' of my tissues with the right brain parts in July 2014!

Above all, "O" did not seem to be the goal as much..but having a romantic and emotionally warm evening.

I always relate to guys (who are on the 'inside' with me) that hormones have rewrapped my emotional thinking response completely in the other direction. Many men understand my analogy ~ like copper windings on an electric motor armature being rewound the other way and now my motor now spins in the other direction. Maybe not a great analogy, but surely at such a level that they would understand it was a vast change in my sex response.

This is always an interesting conversation with the GG's, too. I tell them that my emotional response has been rewritten ~ the mind part of what happens on hormones.

[Madison (kiara jamie)]

Let me specify a bit. I've found a few stories that do not focus on the girls privates but rather the girl herself, honestly those are few and far between but they are out there. Unfortunately a large majority are just horrible and written by ->-bleeped-<-s so the rare gems are nice to read actually. Sorry if I didn't explain! I personally like reading a story where I can relate to the person but not something that objectifies me, there needs to be better stuff.

sorry to sound so bitchy it wasn't met that way but i understand where you are coming from, i just want to relate to one of the characters and i feel that i relate more to a full female than a trans girl, but that is fantasizing for ya lol,

I feel that way too.  I was without a job for the last 11 months and I did have one suggestion of a £400 (about $650) an hour job working from home.  Legal, but certainly not moral.

btw, they don't use spiro here.  The endo thinks it stunts breast growth.

that is always a hard decision, the money is so easy to come by but it comes at a moral cost, also if you don't use spiro, do you cyproterone? im still debating finding something better than spiro for the fused breast buds issue

I had the same experience with the introduction of hormones. Same drop in libido. I would notice, however, that it was a little thought in the back of my mind showering before sleep....I guess there was not much on my mind and daily issues and problems not at the forefront..so in that space, I would have a little 'inkling' of a notion that I might like to feel a little pleasure later..and that thought sort of would stay with me until bed later. Then, any fantasy I might have...would start way before the sex part..say at dinner..red wine and a candlelit corner table in an Italian place with my lover, chatting/footies, and being together..yes that fantasy started there, and something like THAT would begin to really warm my mind. I would imagine a fully intimate experience that covered the whole evening. Not just the sex anymore. I had to often block out the private parts still down there, so during, I began practicing my new mindset of imagining I was post op and I was working with the new bits. I would often work with the old bits in ways not unlike working with the post op bits, using my Body Wand as I would be using it post op and hands off the traditional 'old' methods of pleasure. This helped with the dysphoria and I believe my 'visualizing/practice' will be beneficial post op in 'reconnection' of my tissues with the right brain parts in July 2014!

Above all, "O" did not seem to be the goal as much..but having a romantic and emotionally warm evening.

I always relate to guys (who are on the 'inside' with me) that hormones have rewrapped my emotional thinking response completely in the other direction. Many men understand my analogy ~ like copper windings on an electric motor armature being rewound the other way and now my motor now spins in the other direction. Maybe not a great analogy, but surely at such a level that they would understand it was a vast change in my sex response.

This is always an interesting conversation with the GG's, too. I tell them that my emotional response has been rewritten ~ the mind part of what happens on hormones.

oh yes that is exactly what i have been going for, i always start my fantasy with a back story into a full evening of build up, and the enticing looks with the flirtatious comments and actions just build that unspoken yearning for the full embrace that you are hoping comes, it sounds so silly since we know how men think but it has so much power in controlling our libido, now i understand why my old girlfriend wanted to have a night of going out somewhere instead of just parking on the couch lol

[MaryXYX]

... if you don't use spiro, do you cyproterone? im still debating finding something better than spiro for the fused breast buds issue

I'm on prescription meds so I get decapeptyl by injection every 12 weeks.  That's what the endo says is best.

[Jill F]

Porn never did much for me at all, now it does zero. Zip. Nada.  In fact it's pretty ridiculous.  Visual stimulation isn't sexy.  I can look at naked women all day and nothing will happen other than jealousy.

Nowadays, getting erotic ideas in my head is what works best while I have a date with Mr. Hum, and the orgasms are FAR better, longer and sometimes even multiple.  The old "pop goes the weasel" orgasm was pretty weak in comparison.

I used to jack off, now I jill off!

[LilLivvy91]

Im pre HRT, but i have always preferred erotic literature to porn. Dont get me wrong, porn is sometimes enough, but its usually a short lived experience... With literature, i find that i last incredibly long and the pleasure in my mind just builds and builds for at least an hour to the point of the most gut-wrenching, mind numbing orgasms i believe a biological male can experience. It is what ive heard cis women describe in their orgasms. I could only imagine they will get better when i finally get on E.

The mind is the most important sexual organ!

Sorry if i got a little too personal... Just sharing my take on the subject