Last night I was talking with a friend about my problems and he told me that the congregation has judged me and he qouted the bible about those that judge. But he told me that I should forgive them. But moreover I should find another church, and he suggested that I should go to a gay church instead. So I am considering that.
Eight years ago, my church had a problem and they lost a lot of their members and they went to other United Methodist churchs, so I could easily go to another United Methodist church and someone could see me and they'd get back to my mom and rat on me. It happened once before, unfortunately. So I don't want to take the risk.