Friday weight

[Veronica M]

Well, didn't lose any, but I think what I gained is water weight... Going to have to work a little harder.
FridaY Weight Height 5' 11" Goal weight 170 Lbs.
08/11/2013 335.0 - Yuck... The blob.
04/18/2014 295.4 Lbs.
04/25/2014 290.2 Lbs.
05/02/2014 290.0 Lbs. Stuck there for the week
05/09/2014 286.5 Lbs. Progress. Woohoo!
05/16/2014 287.0 Lbs. Bummer!

[Allyda]

I did weigh myself yesterday but forgot to post. So it's a little late but here it is:


Height: 5ft, 5 in.
1/10/2014 120 lb's
1/17/2014 118 lb's
1/24/2014 120 lb's
1/31/2014 121 lb's
2/07/2014 119 lb's
2/14/2014 119 lb's
2/21/2014 120 lb's
2/28/2014 121 lb's.
3/07/2014 119 lb's.
3/14/2014 117 lb's.
3/21/2014 117 lb's.
3/28/2014 On Vacation!
4/02/2014 On Vacation!
4/11/2012 117 lb's
4/18/2014 118 lb's
4/25/2014 117 lb's
5/02/2014 118 lb's
5/09/2014,117 lb's.
And my Friday weight for 5/16/2014, still 117 lb's

So I'm still the same -have to excercise more, lol!

Ally

[justjournalhonestly]

Wow Ally, for 5'5 those are pretty steady but stellar weights so no real need to fret I don't think. I bet you look smashing just the weight you are!

[Allyda]

Wow Ally, for 5'5 those are pretty steady but stellar weights so no real need to fret I don't think. I bet you look smashing just the weight you are!

Thanks Toni. I'm still chasing the magical 110-113 which, with my thin bone structure is where I feel the best. I look OK where I'm at yes, and all my friends say I'm too skinny now and they're constantly offering me food, lol! I just know my body and where it feels the best at. My Doc's say I'm healthy and I eat six times per day. I just gotta watch the snacks and my chocolate, yum, Got a refrigerator door full of it, lol!

Ally

[Rachel]

12/27/2013   205 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
01/10/2014   204 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
01/17/2014   202 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
01/24/2014   202 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
01/31/2014   200 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
02/07/2014   200 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
02/14/2014   202 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
02/22/2014   202 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178 stuck, added treadmill exercise tonight
02/28/2014   201 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
03/21/2014   201 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178 need to get back on the treadmill and walk
04/11/2014   200 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
04/18/2014   200 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178
05/09/2014   205 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178 I have been eating chocolate, rice and bread (comfort food). It must stop. 
05/16/2014   205 lbm,  6'3",  goal 178

[TessaMarie]

Height:  5'11" (1.81m)    -    Target Weight:  165-170lbs  (75.0-77.3kg)
Fri 27/Dec/2013:  174.8lbs (79.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 174.5lbs (79.3kg) & 175.8lbs (79.9kg)

Fri 03/Jan/2014:  172.4lbs (78.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.8lbs (79.0kg) & 174.8lbs (79.5kg)
Fri 10/Jan/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.6lbs (78.0kg) & 173.7lbs (78.9kg)
Fri 17/Jan/2014:  172.6lbs (78.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.9lbs (78.6kg) & 173.2lbs (78.7kg)
Fri 24/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.1lbs (78.7kg) & 172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 31/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.3lbs (78.8kg) & 172.7lbs (78.5kg)

Fri 07/Feb/2014:  171.8lbs (78.1kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.1lbs (78.2kg) & 172.8lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 14/Feb/2014:  174.6lbs (79.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.7lbs (78.9kg) & 173.0lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Feb/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.5lbs (78.4kg) & 172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 28/Feb/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.3lbs (77.8kg) & 172.4lbs (78.4kg)

Fri 07/Mar/2014:  171.4lbs (77.9kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.2kg) & 172.4lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 14/Mar/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.6lbs (78.9kg) & 172.3lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 21/Mar/2014:  170.8lbs (77.6kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 172.2lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 28/Mar/2014:  170.0lbs (77.3kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.9lbs (77.7kg) & 172.1lbs (78.2kg)

Fri 04/Apr/2014:  172.4lbs (78.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 172.1lbs (78.2kg)
Fri 11/Apr/2014:  170.6lbs (77.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.3lbs (77.8kg) & 171.5lbs (77.9kg)
Fri 18/Apr/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 171.5lbs (78.0kg)
Fri 25/Apr/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.1lbs (77.8kg) & 171.5lbs (78.0kg)

Fri 02/May/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.5lbs (77.5kg) & 171.2lbs (77.8kg)
Fri 09/May/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.4lbs (77.9kg) & 171.2lbs (77.8kg)
Fri 16/May/2014:  170.4lbs (77.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.3lbs (77.4kg) & 170.8lbs (77.6kg)

(Rolling averages are a better indicator of progress than single data points.)

GP recommended something (ie: a mild "stool-softener") to counter the poop effects of the Prometrium, and it is working.  So now I am back to where I was a couple of weeks ago, & with a little progress       Right now my 28-day average is at its lowest since early September 2013, and my 7-day is at its lowest since mid-August 2013.  Nothing dramatic happened.  My 28-day average has been falling fairly steadily by an average of 1oz every 3 days ( = 200g per 3 weeks ≈ 1lb per 7 weeks) since mid-Jan.  It has just taken this long at that rate to get to where I was back when my weight went up after stopping spiro for 5 weeks last year.

I am concentrating more on making sure I eat enough food to get through each work day rather than trying to lose weight, so that makes me really happy with this week's weight loss.

In other news:  I had no problem wandering through 4 stores in Philly looking for tight camisoles/sleeveless shirts.  Took me that many to find something.  Bear in mind that I am still presenting as male all the time.  Only one sales girl seemed off-put by my trans* admission (gosh, I wonder why I only asked girls ... /ahem).  Once again, this week I get to see if I can navigate sharing a room on another work trip without my room-mate seeing my torso.  Sooner or later they're likely to figure something out.  I'm surprised they haven't already.

My sponsor seemed to think that sharing about beng trans* when I speak for my NA anniversary in June wouldn't be that big a deal.  I may do so.  I don't like hiding something this important in my life when I am meant to be sharing honestly.  I seem to have become OK with just being trans*.  Not enirely male & far from female, just trans*.  It feels odd to be OK with this.

Edited due to typo.

[justjournalhonestly]

Tessa, I am not so sure this should seem odd.

I seem to have become OK with just being trans*.  Not entirely male & far from female, just trans*.  It feels odd to be OK with this.

I am far from being ready to start anything outside of my weight loss, as I have a daughter's wedding I need to be good old dad in, and I am fine with that. I know some of my transsexual friends from group think I am letting other's dictate my decisions, but these were plans I made in the beginning. Does it cause me anxiety/stress from time to time? Sure, but so would doing other things right now such as hair removal or hormones. I do think that from time to time we get pushed in both directions, "to be or not to be" transitioning really does not make us transsexual. One could obviously point out that to not be transitioning leave questions about us, but I seem to see plenty of transsexuals transitioning that seem to be getting questioned about that from other transsexuals.

Sometimes I think we are our own communities worst supporters when we doubt folks for doing whatever it is they are doing to cope with this very real and life long issue.

I just need to stand up and say it is okay for you to be "just trans" and I do not want you to feel odd for that. We all tend to feel odd enough until we realize we are already, no sense it feeling odd after we realizing it! LOL I am okay with me being diagnosed as transsexual and though feeling like I should bolt out of the starting gates, I am glad that I am not for my reasons. I am equally proud of my friends who did bolt out of the starting gate, knowing what they needed and time wasn't part of their needs. I get that too, I guess I am way too wishy washy that I can see all these ways are perfectly reasonable and something I am fine with.

I know I have gotten WEIGH off the WAY-tuh subject of this thread, but Tessa, I love you for stating that you are "just Trans" as isn't that just plain honesty at it's best? Let me share some about me. I am fat, afraid to share my picture, I am transsexual but still afraid of transition, still afraid I may be wrong even as I feel I finally am so certain, I feel no matter what I do someone will disagree with me, and I feel that is okay. Now, keep shaking that ass, and the pounds will stay away, and and you will be the loveliest "just trans" five foot eleven person named TessaMarie that I know who keeps an awesome rolling average of her weight and also shops for cami's as a male looking "just trans" person. 

[naomi599]

Still dropping

5/23/2014 - 233
5/16/2014 - 236
5/9/2014 - 237
5/2/2014 - 239
4/25/2014 - 241
4/18/2014 - 242
Started at 267 January.

[Allyda]

Oh gosh it's Friday again. Time for the bad news, so, here goes.................

Height: 5ft, 5 in.
1/10/2014 120 lb's
1/17/2014 118 lb's
1/24/2014 120 lb's
1/31/2014 121 lb's
2/07/2014 119 lb's
2/14/2014 119 lb's
2/21/2014 120 lb's
2/28/2014 121 lb's.
3/07/2014 119 lb's.
3/14/2014 117 lb's.
3/21/2014 117 lb's.
3/28/2014 On Vacation!
4/02/2014 On Vacation!
4/11/2012 117 lb's
4/18/2014 118 lb's
4/25/2014 117 lb's
5/02/2014 118 lb's
5/09/2014 117 lb's.
5/16/2014 117 lb's
And this Friday, May 23rd 2014, I weigh 118 lb's.

Must be holding water again. I've felt bloated the last few days, idk. I just wish these last few pounds were'nt the hardest to lose.

Ally

[Alaia]

Height: 6' 1"

01-24-2014: 175.8 lbs
03-07-2014: 176.8 lbs
03-28-2014: 171.7 lbs
04-04-2014: 171.4 lbs
04-25-2014: 169.8 lbs
05-02-2014: 169.8 lbs
05-16-2014: 171.5 lbs
05-23-2014: 168.8 lbs

[justjournalhonestly]

I needed two good back to back weeks as going into Memorial Day weekend I already ate like a fool when I went out to dinner this evening. I have a BBQ event to attend Sunday and then a trip to Chicago so I suspect two weeks of weight gain. I just hope to keep it out of disaster zone territory which would be a total slide to 244.7. If I can keep it in the 230's I will consider it a success, so please wish me luck. I do plan on staying active so I hope it balances it all out, and if that happens it would be a major plus staying 235.8 until June 6th. June 6th to July fourth will be another good push for good weeks like the last two. My plan is well ahead of schedule being nearly to my halfway point in just over four months, I just don't want to rest on my laurels. If I could be under 200 by my daughter's wedding I will be elated and it now seems doable, where originally I was hoping 225ish was where I would be at. Barring major setbacks I am liking my chances. Now to find away to burn off tonight's excessive dinner. UGH!
235.8 on 05/23/2014
239.2 on 05/16/2014
244.7 on 05/09/2014
243.9 on 05/02/2014
244.7 on 04/25/2014
245.2 on 04/18/2014
249.7 on 04/11/2014
360+  at my highest weight when I found out I was type II. Went to 340 from ketosis, then with off and on half-hearted efforts over ~6 years to get to 300 on 1/21/2014. That is when I came out to myself and started to care about living again and things became absurdly easier. My daughter attributes it to living honestly, which makes life easier in the ways that matter most.
**I am 5'9**

[MikaylaGC]

70kg(154.32lbs) down 1.5kg(3.3lbs)

Prepare for a date, that worked for me lol. Still 5-6kg to go for me. And for the love of god when are you americans gonna use metric?

[Shannon14]

5' 11"
5/23/2014= 254.2lbs

And I only use metric at work. 

[Allyda]

70kg(154.32lbs) down 1.5kg(3.3lbs)

Prepare for a date, that worked for me lol. Still 5-6kg to go for me. And for the love of god when are you americans gonna use metric?

My scale actually will weigh me in metric's. Next friday I'll post both in pounds and kg's, or g's, as I realize we're a worldwide family and posting only in lb's might be inconvenient for our non-US members.

Ally

[justjournalhonestly]

Reminds me in school in the EIGHTIES that we were talking about the impending metric conversion. Then something like it is too expensive to do came along... I guess I kind of understand that, but it seriously is over due. Metric is simply too straight forward and flexible, makes sense, and is mathematically workable to the degree it would be well worth the "claimed" expense of converting. Hmmm, I wonder why so many here have a hard time with sex conversions after thinking about this.

Metric, it IS! I am with Ally and to usher in the occasion I must re-post the following;
I needed two good back to back weeks as going into Memorial Day weekend I already ate like a fool when I went out to dinner this evening. I have a BBQ event to attend Sunday and then a trip to Chicago so I suspect two weeks of weight gain. I just hope to keep it out of disaster zone territory which would be a total slide to 244.7. If I can keep it in the 230's I will consider it a success, so please wish me luck. I do plan on staying active so I hope it balances it all out, and if that happens it would be a major plus staying 235.8 until June 6th. June 6th to July fourth will be another good push for good weeks like the last two. My plan is well ahead of schedule being nearly to my halfway point in just over four months, I just don't want to rest on my laurels. If I could be under 200 by my daughter's wedding I will be elated and it now seems doable, where originally I was hoping 225ish was where I would be at. Barring major setbacks I am liking my chances. Now to find away to burn off tonight's excessive dinner. UGH!
106.9 on 05/23/2014
108.5 on 05/16/2014
111.0 on 05/09/2014
110.6 on 05/02/2014
111.0 on 04/25/2014
111.2 on 04/18/2014
113.2 on 04/11/2014
163.3+  at my highest weight when I found out I was type II. Went to 154.2 from ketosis, then with off and on half-hearted efforts over ~6 years to get to 136.1 on 1/21/2014. That is when I came out to myself and started to care about living again and things became absurdly easier. My daughter attributes it to living honestly, which makes life easier in the ways that matter most.
**I am 5'9**

WTF!?!?!
NO WONDER we stick with pounds, this progress seems tedious! I could DIE from frustration doing this every Friday!!
NEW PLAN...

GRAMS!!!
106957.08 on 05/23/2014
108499.29 on 05/16/2014
110994.05 on 05/09/2014
110631.18 on 05/02/2014
110994.05 on 04/25/2014
111220.85 on 04/18/2014
113262.01 on 04/11/2014
163293+  at my highest weight when I found out I was type II. Went to 154221 from ketosis, then with off and on half-hearted efforts over ~6 years to get to 136078 on 1/21/2014. That is when I came out to myself and started to care about living again and things became absurdly easier. My daughter attributes it to living honestly, which makes life easier in the ways that matter most.
**I am 5'9**

WOW! Now those are number changes that impress... Maybe. /sigh
I may stick with pounds, but I will INCLUDE kilo's from now on!! 

Love,
Ton <--- Ally, do you get it? The flower is the "i". (Please do not pronounce it TON-ee, especially when in this thread.)

[justjournalhonestly]

Please ignore, just prepping for next Friday.
235.8 (107.0) on 05/23/2014
239.2 (108.5) on 05/16/2014
244.7 (111.0) on 05/09/2014
243.9 (110.6) on 05/02/2014
244.7 (111.0) on 04/25/2014
245.2 (111.2) on 04/18/2014
249.7 (113.3) on 04/11/2014
Pounds (kilograms) on mm/dd/yyyy
360 (163.3)+  at my highest weight when I found out I was type II. Went to 340 (154.2) from ketosis, then with off and on half-hearted efforts over ~6 years to get to 300 (136.1) on 1/21/2014. That is when I came out to myself and started to care about living again and things became absurdly easier. My daughter attributes it to living honestly, which makes life easier in the ways that matter most.
**I am 5'9**

[TessaMarie]

Height:  5'11" (1.81m)    -    Target Weight:  165-170lbs  (75.0-77.3kg)
Fri 27/Dec/2013:  174.8lbs (79.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 174.5lbs (79.3kg) & 175.8lbs (79.9kg)

Fri 03/Jan/2014:  172.4lbs (78.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.8lbs (79.0kg) & 174.8lbs (79.5kg)
Fri 10/Jan/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.6lbs (78.0kg) & 173.7lbs (78.9kg)
Fri 17/Jan/2014:  172.6lbs (78.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.9lbs (78.6kg) & 173.2lbs (78.7kg)
Fri 24/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.1lbs (78.7kg) & 172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 31/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.3lbs (78.8kg) & 172.7lbs (78.5kg)

Fri 07/Feb/2014:  171.8lbs (78.1kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.1lbs (78.2kg) & 172.8lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 14/Feb/2014:  174.6lbs (79.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.7lbs (78.9kg) & 173.0lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Feb/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 172.5lbs (78.4kg) & 172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 28/Feb/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.3lbs (77.8kg) & 172.4lbs (78.4kg)

Fri 07/Mar/2014:  171.4lbs (77.9kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.2kg) & 172.4lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 14/Mar/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 173.6lbs (78.9kg) & 172.3lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 21/Mar/2014:  170.8lbs (77.6kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 172.2lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 28/Mar/2014:  170.0lbs (77.3kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.9lbs (77.7kg) & 172.1lbs (78.2kg)

Fri 04/Apr/2014:  172.4lbs (78.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 172.1lbs (78.2kg)
Fri 11/Apr/2014:  170.6lbs (77.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.3lbs (77.8kg) & 171.5lbs (77.9kg)
Fri 18/Apr/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.9lbs (78.1kg) & 171.5lbs (78.0kg)
Fri 25/Apr/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.1lbs (77.8kg) & 171.5lbs (78.0kg)

Fri 02/May/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.5lbs (77.5kg) & 171.2lbs (77.8kg)
Fri 09/May/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 171.4lbs (77.9kg) & 171.2lbs (77.8kg)
Fri 16/May/2014:  170.4lbs (77.5kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.3lbs (77.4kg) & 170.8lbs (77.6kg)
Fri 23/May/2014:  171.4lbs (77.9kg) - 7 & 28-day rolling avgs: 170.5lbs (77.5kg) & 170.7lbs (77.6kg)

(Rolling averages are a better indicator of progress than single data points.)

Another week of very little change.  I am mostly glad that my weight hasn't restarted rising again.  Tue & Wed were very long days at work (14 & 18 hours) with nowt eaten but chocolate & twizzlers.  So much for making sure I eat enough food every day ... /sigh

I have decided that I will be including the trans* part of my story when I speak at my homegroup in a couple of weeks for my NA anniversary.  It feels too wrong to be hiding something so important to me at the one place where absolute honesty has brought such powerful positive change to my life.  I don't care if some people (or even most people) don't like what I say.  I am trans*.  I am not going back to where I was.  I may never go further than I am.  But the person I am now is already so much different to the person I was early last year.  Physically, there is little to no chance of me passing as female.  But that doesn't matter any more.  I am very much more comfortable within myself just being.  How others perceive me is secondary to that.

I don't know about coming out at work.  That is a different environment.  The company I work for & the client company are both very LGBT-friendly.  So I may decide to out myself sooner rather than later.  I really do have to tell my parents very, very soon.  Now that's a conversation that I am terrified of.

Toni:  Thank you for your reply to my post last week.  Really.  Your words made me feel great.  I feel I should respond, so:

Tessa, I am not so sure this should seem odd.

I know some of my transsexual friends from group think I am letting other's dictate my decisions, but these were plans I made in the beginning. Does it cause me anxiety/stress from time to time? Sure, but so would doing other things right now such as hair removal or hormones. I do think that from time to time we get pushed in both directions, "to be or not to be" transitioning really does not make us transsexual. One could obviously point out that to not be transitioning leave questions about us, but I seem to see plenty of transsexuals transitioning that seem to be getting questioned about that from other transsexuals.

Sometimes I think we are our own communities worst supporters when we doubt folks for doing whatever it is they are doing to cope with this very real and life long issue.

I am M-towards-F.  The clear implication is that while I have started my journey, there may never be a destination.  I have met some who seem to find this attitude more than just a little odd, generally those who maintain that transition is from Gender A ALL THE WAY TO Gender B.  Some have also doubted whether or not I am trans* because I am not rushing to abandon my birth gender.  Accepting who I am has been hard.  I am not about to give that away by trying to conform to someone else's idea of whom I should become & how I should get there.  It seems odd to me that anyone would seek to impose their beliefs upon we who have started our journey by shaking off an entire lifetime of attempting to live up to other's expectations of whom we should be.

I just need to stand up and say it is okay for you to be "just trans" and I do not want you to feel odd for that. We all tend to feel odd enough until we realize we are already, no sense it feeling odd after we realizing it!    LOL   

Thank you, Toni       It does still feel odd, but also very, very freeing.  Accepting that I can legitimately claim to be trans* while still presenting as my birth gender has been difficult to get my head around.  I am OK with presenting as male and using a male name & male pronouns.  That does not negate the fact that I am trans*.  I am comfortable being in this middle ground, neither one or the other.  I am odd, and that is OK.  I actually teared up a little at work when I told them that the "Rainman" nickname they gave me was the first time I had ever been given a nickname that wasn't intended to hurt.

I guess I am way too empathetic that I can see all these ways are perfectly reasonable and something I am fine with.

FIXED !    ;o)

I know I have gotten WEIGH off the WAY-tuh subject of this thread, but Tessa, I love you for stating that you are "just Trans" as isn't that just plain honesty at it's best?

Now, keep shaking that ass, and the pounds will stay away, and and you will be the loveliest "just trans" five foot eleven person named TessaMarie that I know who keeps an awesome rolling average of her weight and also shops for cami's as a male looking "just trans" person.   

TY for that compliment       and for making me laugh last weekend   

Let me share some about me. I am fat, afraid to share my picture, I am transsexual but still afraid of transition, still afraid I may be wrong even as I feel I finally am so certain, I feel no matter what I do someone will disagree with me, and I feel that is okay.

I still haven't shared my picture here (although the folks at TGChatRoom have seen what I look like), and probably won't for a while, if ever.  Extra weight has been a big deal for me too.  My maximum (in 2010) was about where you are now.  I am no longer 233lbs, and that does feel great.  I am thankful that accepting the existence of my gender dysphoria has allowed me to take care of my physical body.  I am not watching my weight carefully to achieve some ideal  -  I am doing so to stay healthy. 

Transition is big.  If it doesn't scare you, then you haven't yet figured out how much it involves.  And yet we go through with it.  Why? ... For me it was because the pain of not transitioning became much greater than my fear of such tremendous change.  And even then, I still sought other means of dealing with being trans* for more than 3 months after not dealing with it brought me to the ER. 

Now, about a year on HRT, I am very glad to be where I am now.  My depression is still completely gone (TY Prometrium); my obsession with & compulsion about being &/or presenting female has also gone (TY Estrogen) - the desire remains, but the O-C behaviour is gone; and I no longer have to go through the physical & emotional discomfort of multiple daily involuntary erections (TY Finasteride & Spironolactone).

70kg(154.32lbs) down 1.5kg(3.3lbs)

Prepare for a date, that worked for me lol. Still 5-6kg to go for me. And for the love of god when are you americans gonna use metric?  

I grew up with both, but emigrated just before Ireland fully abandoned Imperial measurements.  I find it a little ironic that the only country still using England's "Imperial Measurements" is the first country to successfully rebel against being an English colony.

Please ignore, just prepping for next Friday.
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LOL.  Do you need a copy of my spreadsheet so that the conversions are calculated automatically   ;o)

[AnneB]

I weighed in on Friday, but didnt get to post it..  I'm still pretty static.. little change either way. 

5/24/14, 157.4lbs, 5' 10"    just where I've been the last several months.  =(

it's really difficult to eat right when I'm out on trips..  I am at the mercy of food courts in the terminals, if I even have time to grab something.. and the hotel this morning.. ugh, went down for breakfast, and it's the standard lame buffet..  eggs, bacon, sausage, french toast, potatoes, rolls, pastries,  and the -only thing- even remotely healthy is the juice, but that has lots of sugar... no fruit, no oatmeal, nothing low fat, diet-anything.  Told the front desk girl while I was checking out.. she agreed.. she would pass it on the the manager..  eh, like anything would happen  :/

So my weight will remain, abt 156lbs, and go up or down a couple pounds.. as long as i can stay below 160, I can deal with that.

[TessaMarie]

it's really difficult to eat right when I'm out on trips..  I am at the mercy of food courts in the terminals, if I even have time to grab something.. and the hotel this morning.. ugh, went down for breakfast, and it's the standard lame buffet..  eggs, bacon, sausage, french toast, potatoes, rolls, pastries,  and the -only thing- even remotely healthy is the juice, but that has lots of sugar... no fruit, no oatmeal, nothing low fat, diet-anything. 

I work 02:00-12:00, so I miss the hotel breakfasts when away.  I get around that by always having some porridge oats (ie: oatmeal in American) with me in a ziploc bag or tupperware container (and another with sugar, because I do need some sweetening).  Every hotel room I have been in recently has had a microwave & a fridge, so I only need to get some milk on my way to the hotel from the airport and I can make porridge for myself.  ... assuming I remember to eat at all ...

I admit I do also carry a small kettle & some Barry's tea.  I don't like being without my tea (or my porridge).  Without them I do not counter the stool-hardening effects of the Prometrium very well.

[TessaMarie]

I should probably create a new topic for this post, but since this thread is the only place I have been posting on Susan's recently, here seems more appropriate.

Before I left work today, I told my supervisor & my manager that I am transgender.  Neither seemed to think it was a big deal.  Supervisor is going to continue to use male name & pronouns (as I requested).  Manager decided that I will not be sharing a room with a colleague for next week's business trip, & will try to see to it that all 6 of us get our own rooms so that I am not seen to be a 'special case'.

I feel it went well.  Time will tell.  I will update in a few weeks.

Bye for now,

Tessa