Friday weight

[katiej]

Tessa, I hope you found it therapeutic to write it out. You seemed hopeful towards the end. I wish you the best.

It seems like getting through the awkward inbetween phase requires just putting your head down and grinding it out.  Sort of reminds me of getting through grad school...but without the serious social implications.

And btw, I LOVE that you're using rolling averages. Make a chart with a trendline and this finance girl would be pretty impressed!

[TessaMarie]

Tessa, I hope you found it therapeutic to write it out. You seemed hopeful towards the end. I wish you the best.

It seems like getting through the awkward inbetween phase requires just putting your head down and grinding it out.  Sort of reminds me of getting through grad school...but without the serious social implications.

TY for your hopeful words 

And btw, I LOVE that you're using rolling averages. Make a chart with a trendline and this finance girl would be pretty impressed!

There seems to be a slight linear downward trend (c.1oz/3 days) since the middle of January 2014 (c.Day 360).  I did match my 28-day averages for the first 200 days to a 50/50 interpolation between a linear graph & a reciprocal graph, while my daily weight seemed to follow a straightforward reciprocal graph.  Other than that, there does not really seem to be any specifically mathematical trend:


/nerd

[justjournalhonestly]

Well, I know I am slowing down, but I am continuing to get healthier and it does show. I am reaching an awkward stage at work as I am getting some feedback about how I am going to start slaying the ladies, lol (funny because I am not into females, or anything really, not that I am asexual as I am not. I'm just not comfortable with myself, so not going there with anyone. Though if I were gendered the way I feel I should've of been, I would date men for sure. Probably exclusively, though because of my past I cannot rule out women.) I guess my hard work is starting to show, but it's a linebacker look. I am simply so fricking broad, having been in sports and then power lifting really may have screwed me for the transition I wish I could make. I know it's not about looks, but I also don't want to look like the stereotypical Eastern Block Olympian from the 70's and 80's East German and Soviet Union weight lifters and I think that is my best case scenario at this point. I still have more than oodles of fat to lose but I am seeing the muscle showing up already, and how fricking wide my shoulders are and my upper torso as a whole. I get it, I always did, that I was born in this male body, and now that I realize it is the wrong one, I suppose why not the REALLY wrong one? But shoot, it kind of makes losing weight suck. I know I got to 360+ because I did not think I could ever be happy with my body anyways, but oh this stage is like a horrific reminder. I am going to continue to fight through it though, I am! As I do recall when I used to dance I did look slender at times in high school. I am just not sure if I can reach that after the decades of thickening testosterone has done to me, and then the massive eating I did after I gave up. I am still not asking God to just end me anymore, which is good, but I sure am still asking that when this life is all over, whenever it is, that I get to come back as a girl. I just have to, as I fear I am not going to make it to a point I can even try in this life. Sorry to get so far off track on this post but I am...
/feeling mopey 
225.8 (102.4) on 07/25/2014
226.9 (102.9) on 07/18/2014
228.2 (103.5) on 07/11/2014
227.2 (103.1) on 07/04/2014
230.3 (104.5) on 06/27/2014
232.3 (105.4) on 06/20/2014
231.9 (104.8 ) on 06/13/2014
234.4 (106.3) on 06/06/2014
Pounds (kilograms) on mm/dd/yyyy
360 (163.3)+  at my highest weight when I found out I was type II. Went to 340 (154.2) from ketosis, then with off and on half-hearted efforts over ~6 years to get to 300 (136.1) on 1/21/2014. That is when I came out to myself and started to care about living again and things became absurdly easier. My daughter attributes it to living honestly, which makes life easier in the ways that matter most.
**I am 5'9**

[Allyda]

Well again it's Friday. Here are my results.

Height: 5ft, 5 in.
Goal  weight is 108-110 lb's.
7/23/2014 NOTE: January, February, March and April removed to save space and shorten post. Feb. 21st left for reference.
2/21/2014 120 lbs.
5/02/2014 118 lb's
5/09/2014 117 lb's.
5/16/2014 117 lb's
5/23/2014 118 lb's.
5/30/2014 117 lb's.
6/06/2014 117 lb's.
6/13/2014 118 lb's.
6/20/2014 117 lb's.
6/27/2014 116 lb's.
7/04/2014 118 lb's.
7/11/2014 117 lb's.
7/19/2014 118 lb's.

And on this Friday, 7/25/2014 I again weighed 118 lb's.

I think I better get used to this weight until I get better weather and can get outside. I could cut my food intake but, it's at 1,450 to 1,650 calories per day now and I'm afraid if I go too low it will be unhealthy, so I dunno. One thing is obvious. If I want to reach my goal weight I have to change something.

Allie

[MyKa]

5'11 143lbs went to my endo for my yearly and was 157 this time last year.

[katiej]

There seems to be a slight linear downward trend (c.1oz/3 days) since the middle of January 2014 (c.Day 360).  I did match my 28-day averages for the first 200 days to a 50/50 interpolation between a linear graph & a reciprocal graph, while my daily weight seemed to follow a straightforward reciprocal graph.  Other than that, there does not really seem to be any specifically mathematical trend:


/nerd

Tessa, well done.  Clearly you've got skills. 

I hope you don't mind, I plugged your numbers in and played around with them a bit.  And you're right, there definitely is a trend.  I don't have your daily numbers, but the weekly numbers you've posted here have been consistently trending downward since December. 




The last month was a bit of an outlier, but you seem to have returned to the basic trajectory.  And after playing with the numbers a bit, I spotted a fairly predictable 7 week cycle of losing a few and gaining a few.  So I created a seasonal index.




So with the consistent/predictable downward trend and the seasonal index, I built a predictive model.  Your stated goal weight is 165lbs.  Given the big losses of the last month or so, I'd say you're capable of reaching your goal relatively quickly.  But if you stick to the same routine you've had all year without making big changes, then I predict you'll reach 165lbs by the end of November.





This is fun!

[katiej]

I've lost about 30lbs with a change in diet and mostly no exercise.  But I think I've arrived at the point of needing to exercise to get the last 30+ lbs to come off. 

Age: 36
Height: 5'8"
Goal: 155

222.0 on 12/1/13
219.8 on 12/6/13
213.2 on 12/20/13
210.4 on 1/10/14
201.0 on 2/28/14
198.8 on 3/14/14
-- I lost focus for a few months here --
197.4 on 7/4/14
194.0 on 7/11/14
192.4 on 7/18/14
192.2 on 7/25/14

[TessaMarie]

Tessa, well done.  Clearly you've got skills. 

So with the consistent/predictable downward trend and the seasonal index, I built a predictive model.  Your stated goal weight is 165lbs.  Given the big losses of the last month or so, I'd say you're capable of reaching your goal relatively quickly.  But if you stick to the same routine you've had all year without making big changes, then I predict you'll reach 165lbs by the end of November.

This is fun!

LOL.  Thanks Katie 

Given that I was 176.8lbs this morning after getting out of the hosptial yesterday evening, I suspect that your prediction may not be entirely accurate ....  /sigh

So here is where I was at last Friday, before I went to the ER on Saturday:

Height:  5'11" (1.81m)    -    Target Weight:  Belly not protruding over belt, which I think will be at:  165-170lbs  (75.0-77.3kg)

Date              Daily Weight            7-day Average        28-day Average 
Sun 20/Jan/2013:  202.6lbs (92.1kg)
Thu 24/Jan/2013:  190.8lbs (86.7kg)  -  199.7lbs (90.8kg)
Thu 14/Feb/2013:  190.8lbs (86.7kg)  -  192.9lbs (87.7kg)  -  196.0lbs (89.1kg)
Fri 29/Mar/2013:  182.2lbs (82.8kg)  -  184.0lbs (83.6kg)  -  184.8lbs (84.0kg)
Fri 26/Apr/2013:  177.0lbs (80.5kg)  -  177.7lbs (80.8kg)  -  180.0lbs (81.8kg)
Fri 31/May/2013:  170.0lbs (77.3kg)  -  171.8lbs (78.1kg)  -  172.7lbs (78.5kg)
Fri 28/Jun/2013:  170.6lbs (77.5kg)  -  169.3lbs (77.0kg)  -  169.5lbs (77.1kg)
Wed 31/Jul/2013:  166.0lbs (75.5kg)  -  168.6lbs (76.6kg)  -  169.5lbs (77.1kg)
Sat 10/Aug/2013:  166.6lbs (75.7kg)  -  167.8lbs (76.3kg)  -  168.8lbs (76.7kg)
Fri 30/Aug/2013:  171.4lbs (77.9kg)  -  171.3lbs (77.9kg)  -  170.4lbs (77.4kg)
Fri 27/Sep/2013:  169.8lbs (77.2kg)  -  171.3lbs (77.9kg)  -  171.1lbs (77.8kg)
Fri  1/Nov/2013:  183.6lbs (83.5kg)  -  181.2lbs (82.4kg)  -  176.2lbs (80.1kg)
Fri 22/Nov/2013:  177.4lbs (80.6kg)  -  178.0lbs (80.9kg)  -  179.1lbs (81.4kg)
Fri 27/Dec/2013:  174.8lbs (79.5kg)  -  174.5lbs (79.3kg)  -  175.8lbs (79.9kg)
Fri 24/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg)  -  173.1lbs (78.7kg)  -  172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Feb/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg)  -  172.5lbs (78.4kg)  -  172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Mar/2014:  170.8lbs (77.6kg)  -  171.9lbs (78.1kg)  -  172.2lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 18/Apr/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg)  -  171.9lbs (78.1kg)  -  171.5lbs (78.0kg)
Fri 16/May/2014:  170.4lbs (77.5kg)  -  170.3lbs (77.4kg)  -  170.8lbs (77.6kg)
Fri 14/Jun/2014:  170.6lbs (77.5kg)  -  170.7lbs (77.6kg)  -  170.6lbs (77.5kg)
Fri 11/Jul/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg)  -  169.2lbs (76.9kg)  -  168.9lbs (76.8kg)
Fri 18/Jul/2014:  169.6lbs (77.1kg)  -  169.9lbs (77.2kg)  -  169.0lbs (76.8kg)
Fri 25/Jul/2014:  168.8lbs (76.7kg)  -  169.3lbs (76.9kg)  -  169.1lbs (76.9kg)

(Rolling averages are a better indicator of progress than single data points.)

I generally do not post on Friday because I often weigh myself late in the day.  I work night-shift, & tend to sleep most of each Friday afternoon & evening.

My brother visited on Saturday.  It was really good to spend some time with him.  He is not happy that I am transitioning, and this does put a bit of a strain on our friendship.  Fortunately, he is finding the internal strength to overcome how he feels and still remain in contact with me.  There is just the two of us; no other siblings.  He is very sad to be losing his only brother, and not sure how or if he will be able to relate to me as Tessa.

After he left, my lower abdomen started hurting.  A few hours later I had my wife take me to the ER.  They found a hernia and told me I would need surgery on the Sunday.  When the doc checked me again less than an hour later, the hernia had grown enough that he woke up his boss & had me in the OR at 4:30am on Sunday morning.  They removed an incarcerated hernia and 3-4 inches of my lower intestine that had become necrotic.  Since I have not pooped or puked since the operation, my weight has been steadily rising each day since.  Once my repaired colon starts letting through something more substantial than just gas, then I expect my weight to drop a bit.  In the meantime, I feel lousy; and a little concerned.

Tessa

[katiej]

Tessa, I'm glad the surgery went well.  My thoughts and prayers are with you as you recover.

And don't worry about the weight.  Clearly there are mitigating circumstances in the push to get to your goal.

[TessaMarie]

Tessa, I'm glad the surgery went well.  My thoughts and prayers are with you as you recover.

And don't worry about the weight.  Clearly there are mitigating circumstances in the push to get to your goal.

TY Katie.  I am only beginning to realise how serious my situation was.  I am not used to seeing phrases like "mortality rate" referring to procedures that I have just come through.

I do realise that recovering from my surgery is the most important thing I have to do right now, but I can see that I did not make that plain in my post.

I will keep recording my weight & posting here, but that is trivial compared to becoming well again.  My food intake will be determined by what I need to recover, not anything else.

[Cindy]

Hugs Tessa.

Get well soon Hon.

[TessaMarie]

Hugs Tessa.

Get well soon Hon.

Thanks Cindy   

I am a bit better than this time yesterday.  At least I now know that the repair job is functional.  From here on, I just have to let myself heal.

[justjournalhonestly]

Very good news Tessa, and this thread says "Friday Weight" but I think we all see this as a post about our efforts to get healthier. Getting healed IS getting healthier! Once you bounce back, you will probably have renewed ambition and resume your weight loss success! Get well girlfriend!!!

[katiej]

Toni, I think that's a really good point.  This whole thing is about being healthy.

I've tried to lose weight before, but it always came back.  Dieting was a temporary thing.  But this time, I'm motivated because I want to be well.  I want to live.  I want to be me.  And so a shift in my diet and other habits was easy.  I have a target weight, but I don't plan to return to my old way of doing things once I reach it.  I've changed my lifestyle.

[Allyda]

I am a bit better than this time yesterday.  At least I now know that the repair job is functional.  From here on, I just have to let myself heal.

Many hugs and well wishes Tessa. Focus on getting better. The weight loss can wait.

Allie

[justjournalhonestly]

"Chugga Chugga, Toot Toot!" said the little engine that could. Just noticed another advantage to kilograms... I will actually see a double digit midget number soon. That is kind of cool in a weird way. Not as momentous as getting below 200 or my old Marine Corps weight, and finally 155. I do see it as a neat little milestone I had overlooked until just now. Hope everyone is having a healthy week, and Tessa and others needing to heal up I hope are mending nicely and pampering themselves just a little.
221.3 (100.4) on 08/01/2014
225.8 (102.4) on 07/25/2014
226.9 (102.9) on 07/18/2014
228.2 (103.5) on 07/11/2014
227.2 (103.1) on 07/04/2014
230.3 (104.5) on 06/27/2014
232.3 (105.4) on 06/20/2014
231.9 (104.8 ) on 06/13/2014
Pounds (kilograms) on mm/dd/yyyy

[katiej]

I'm eating well and losing weight, but i seem to have picked up my diet coke habit again. I hadn't had any for over six months and now I'm right back at it. Quitting that stuff is like getting off crack. I swear they put an addictive chemical in it.


Age: 36
Height: 5'8"
Goal: 155

222.0 on 12/1/13
219.8 on 12/6/13
213.2 on 12/20/13
210.4 on 1/10/14
201.0 on 2/28/14
198.8 on 3/14/14
-- I lost focus for a few months here --
198.8 on 6/28/14
197.4 on 7/4/14
194.0 on 7/11/14
192.4 on 7/18/14
192.2 on 7/25/14
190.0 on 8/1/14

[TessaMarie]

Height:  5'11" (1.81m)    -    Target Weight:  Belly not protruding over belt, which I think will be at:  165-170lbs  (75.0-77.3kg)

Date              Daily Weight            7-day Average        28-day Average 
Sun 20/Jan/2013:  202.6lbs (92.1kg)
Thu 24/Jan/2013:  190.8lbs (86.7kg)  -  199.7lbs (90.8kg)
Thu 14/Feb/2013:  190.8lbs (86.7kg)  -  192.9lbs (87.7kg)  -  196.0lbs (89.1kg)
Fri 29/Mar/2013:  182.2lbs (82.8kg)  -  184.0lbs (83.6kg)  -  184.8lbs (84.0kg)
Fri 26/Apr/2013:  177.0lbs (80.5kg)  -  177.7lbs (80.8kg)  -  180.0lbs (81.8kg)
Fri 31/May/2013:  170.0lbs (77.3kg)  -  171.8lbs (78.1kg)  -  172.7lbs (78.5kg)
Fri 28/Jun/2013:  170.6lbs (77.5kg)  -  169.3lbs (77.0kg)  -  169.5lbs (77.1kg)
Wed 31/Jul/2013:  166.0lbs (75.5kg)  -  168.6lbs (76.6kg)  -  169.5lbs (77.1kg)
Sat 10/Aug/2013:  166.6lbs (75.7kg)  -  167.8lbs (76.3kg)  -  168.8lbs (76.7kg)
Fri 30/Aug/2013:  171.4lbs (77.9kg)  -  171.3lbs (77.9kg)  -  170.4lbs (77.4kg)
Fri 27/Sep/2013:  169.8lbs (77.2kg)  -  171.3lbs (77.9kg)  -  171.1lbs (77.8kg)
Fri  1/Nov/2013:  183.6lbs (83.5kg)  -  181.2lbs (82.4kg)  -  176.2lbs (80.1kg)
Fri 22/Nov/2013:  177.4lbs (80.6kg)  -  178.0lbs (80.9kg)  -  179.1lbs (81.4kg)
Fri 27/Dec/2013:  174.8lbs (79.5kg)  -  174.5lbs (79.3kg)  -  175.8lbs (79.9kg)
Fri 24/Jan/2014:  173.4lbs (78.8kg)  -  173.1lbs (78.7kg)  -  172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Feb/2014:  171.6lbs (78.0kg)  -  172.5lbs (78.4kg)  -  172.9lbs (78.6kg)
Fri 21/Mar/2014:  170.8lbs (77.6kg)  -  171.9lbs (78.1kg)  -  172.2lbs (78.3kg)
Fri 18/Apr/2014:  171.0lbs (77.7kg)  -  171.9lbs (78.1kg)  -  171.5lbs (78.0kg)
Fri 16/May/2014:  170.4lbs (77.5kg)  -  170.3lbs (77.4kg)  -  170.8lbs (77.6kg)
Fri 14/Jun/2014:  170.6lbs (77.5kg)  -  170.7lbs (77.6kg)  -  170.6lbs (77.5kg)
Fri 11/Jul/2014:  170.2lbs (77.4kg)  -  169.2lbs (76.9kg)  -  168.9lbs (76.8kg)
Fri 18/Jul/2014:  169.6lbs (77.1kg)  -  169.9lbs (77.2kg)  -  169.0lbs (76.8kg)
Fri 25/Jul/2014:  168.8lbs (76.7kg)  -  169.3lbs (76.9kg)  -  169.1lbs (76.9kg)
Tue 29/Jul/2014:  179.2lbs (81.5kg)  -  172.4lbs (78.4kg)  -  170.0lbs (77.3kg)
Fri  1/Aug/2014:  166.4lbs (75.6kg)  -  173.2lbs (78.7kg)  -  170.4lbs (77.4kg)

(Rolling averages are a better indicator of progress than single data points.)

My weight shot up to 179.2lbs (81.5kg) by the time I got home on Tuesday evening from my 3 days in the hospital.  That is my highest weight since Nov 2013.  The following evening my bowels started letting some of the backlog out, and by Friday morning I had lost 12.8lbs (5.8kg) to reach my lowest weight since Jul 2013, 166.4lbs (75.6kg).  As my wife so gleefully pointed out:  I really was full of it.

My weight dropped to 165.8lbs (75.4kg) this morning, which is my lowest weight since 2001.  Fortunately my appetite seems to be slowly returning:  I was actually able to eat an omelette for breakfast this morning.  I want to lose some weight, but not by starving myself.  The pain meds are still curbing my appetite quite a bit by upsetting my stomach, and I still need a few each day.  I am grateful that I am able to eat small meals again.

I am a lot more grateful just to be alive.  If I had stayed in bed to "ride it out" overnight, the outcome would not have been good.  The swelling sped up a lot while I was in the ER.  Surgeons don't generally get out of bed to operate on someone at 4am on a Sunday morning just because they feel like it. 

I am lucky I realised that I needed to go to the ER.
I am lucky my wife decided to take me to Jeanes hospital herself instead of letting an ambulance take me to the nearest hospital.
I am lucky the ER doctor realised immediately that I needed a CT-scan & called the resident surgeon on-duty.
I am lucky the resident surgeon quickly diagnosed a hernia despite my having no history or even knowledge of having a hernia.  (I thought that maybe my prostate was acting up again.)
I am lucky the resident surgeon made the decision to wake up his boss (who was the surgeon on-call) as soon as he saw the rate of swelling increase.
I am lucky that the surgeon on-call happened to be a colon specialist who was sleeping in the building beside the ER.
I am lucky to have no complications (yet) after my colon had to be stitched back together following an emergency removal of a hernia & a few inches of dead colon.
I am lucky.

This past week has helped me come to an understanding of my NA Second Step:  All it means is that I cannot recover on my own.  I need others to help me.  Knowing this was easy; accepting it has been hard.  The final piece I needed was to realise that I do not need to magically find a belief in some deity, that I can work the 2nd Step without that just by accepting that I need help in all that I do.  It has taken me 17 years of recovery to overcome my pride, arrogance & self-importance enough to become willing to accept this very simple statement.

I am in physical pain.  My everything hurts.  I cannot do many things that have always been trivial tasks.  And yet I find that I am very happy, very content with my life & how it is going.  I have a loving wife for whom I care deeply.  I have friends who are willing to pause their lives and take time to stop by & help.  I have a job that is eagerly awaiting my return from illness.  I have a boss who has made it clear to myself and many others that he places a high value on my work and that he likes how I do my job.

As a friend said to me earlier:  The universe seems to be spinning in my direction.

Tessa

[katiej]

Tessa, I'm so glad to hear you're in such good spirits.  As you continue to recover, the pain will subside, but hopefully your bright spirits will continue.

[Allyda]

I forgot to post Friday. Here is what my weight Friday morning was:

Height: 5ft, 5 in.
Goal  weight is 108-110 lb's.
7/23/2014 NOTE: January, February, March and April removed to save space and shorten post. Feb. 21st left for reference.
2/21/2014 120 lbs.
5/02/2014 118 lb's
5/09/2014 117 lb's.
5/16/2014 117 lb's
5/23/2014 118 lb's.
5/30/2014 117 lb's.
6/06/2014 117 lb's.
6/13/2014 118 lb's.
6/20/2014 117 lb's.
6/27/2014 116 lb's.
7/04/2014 118 lb's.
7/11/2014 117 lb's.
7/19/2014 118 lb's.
7/25/2014 118 lb's.

And on Friday August 1st, 2014, 117 lb's.

I'm stuck girls.

Allie