QuoteHere is my issue, I've been seeing my GF for a few months now. She know's about me starting hormones. I've been on low doses on everything. I've noticed and significant drop off on the sex drive and having a hard time with maintaining. It's starting to effect my relationship.
I'm considering coming off hormones. I love the calm I feel, I haven't been on anything really long enough to have any body changes. The conflict is that I want to continue both the hormones and the relationship. But how do I overcome the lacking the bedroom. Any advice would be great. Thanks for reading.
When my wife (20 years) wants to have sex then I take a Cialis (high dose). Prior to HRT I never initiated sex and it was infrequent. The difference now is we plan ahead and it is usually 1/ month and sometimes we skip.
Pre HRT sex was dysphoric and I saw black, had my eyes closed and concentrated. Now I accept I am trans and learned to vision myself having sex as myself (inner self). This is a dysphoric event but really good until when it is over and I am external me, sucks. So close but then so far away. This leaves me empty and a shell or so I feel.
I damaged my penis shaft many years ago when I was a teen so and erection is very painful due to the restrictive scar tissue. I never told my wife.
The end of the 1st month on HRT I was in a panic because nothing worked and my wife wanted to escape. I had to relearn how to arouse which is very different than male arousal.
I have a GID medical diagnosis and it is confirmed to my insurance company. I started a time line in the event Gender Reaffirmation Surgery is chosen, which is covered under insurance.
I am in love so the things I do are not simple in comparison to being single. I am also much more attracted sexually to males but I guess I never figured out love and sex
