Hello everyone

My name is Natalia, I'm a 26 years old MTF that started HRT Just about one month ago! Yay
First, I'm from Sao Paulo, Brazil and english is not my mother tongue, so please forgive my mistakes (I am sure there will be a lot of them)
I never felt like a real man and, as someone that was always fighting with my weight, I really suffered with my body, trying to hide my somewhat feminine curves. The boys really mocked me when I was 12 calling me a girl because of my body...I was really annoyed with that.
I didn't realize until about one year ago, but I always had a feminine side wanting to get out. Since I was a child I remember I loved to wear my mother's shoes and try her clothes...she took it as a child thing, but now I think that it was much more than that, I just wasn't aware of it at that time.
But then I grew up trying to be a boy and I never really achieved that. Besides loving videogames and action movies, I never really had a boy side...and never allowed my feminine me to get out...I think I grew up kind of neutral.
I think that my strongest feminine characteristics are that I am very emotive and cry with literally everything, I am a calm person, very polite and also extremely shy! Lucky me the internet is easier to communicate with others, right? ^^
Well, I think I already wrote too much for just an introduction, but I am really happy to be on this forum and to be posting about me and not only reading as an observer.
I started HRT and I am feeling really good with myself. So far I already can see good changes! Softer and whiter skin, my thighs and butt that were already big seems to be bigger, my waist is smaller, my body odor has changed, my hands and feet looks a bit different, my boobs are growing fast, my hair is slowly growing back on bald areas (just one month, it is almost unbelievable)
But I am still on boy mode... I am really afraid of coming out to my family... I am sure they won't understand me at all...so I started HRT by my own without their knowledge. I will try to deal with things as they show up, but I think that after a while my changes will become each time more visible and harder to hide. That makes me really happy and really sad at the same time lol
Kisses

Nath