Moved Out And am Now Starting Full Time . . .

[Gina Taylor]

This is a powerful antipsychotic, what evidence is there that you are psychotic?

How many consults did you have? Did you present in a nonfunctional state? Are you suffering delusional anxiety?

Please, please get another opinion.

Thanks Cindy for the information. Not sure where he came to that conclusion that I'm psychotic. 

I've only seen him once, and I have another session with him next month. Hopefully by myself. My mom told me that she didn't like him, because he asked me about my childhood, which was before my accident, and she felt that she would have been able to answer that better than me. It wasn't till after my accident that I started to show any feminine traits. He told her that I do have GID, and that it's my obsession. But as said, I've never shown any delusional anxiety.

[suzifrommd]

Thanks Cindy for the information. Not sure where he came to that conclusion that I'm psychotic. 

I've only seen him once, and I have another session with him next month. Hopefully by myself. My mom told me that she didn't like him, because he asked me about my childhood, which was before my accident, and she felt that she would have been able to answer that better than me. It wasn't till after my accident that I started to show any feminine traits. He told her that I do have GID, and that it's my obsession. But as said, I've never shown any delusional anxiety.

Gina, I'm really reluctant to judge this guy, since I haven't met you or him.

But this smells to high heaven. He's treating GID as if it is a psychiatric disorder. We know conclusively that it isn't.

Please, please, please, find another psychiatrist. I have MAJOR doubts about whether this one isn't giving you treatment that may make you FAR WORSE than you started.

[Gina Taylor]

I'm confused about WHY you are even bringing your Mother to these sessions? ???Wow, something just doesn't sound right.  Are you a transsexual or psychotic?
You need to go to a GENDER THERAPIST!

Thanks for your concern JordanBlue. My mom feels that when seeing a new doctor, she must go there and fill them in with stuff that she feels that I can't. Next session, I'm insisting that I go alone. At least when I saw my new therapist {which was recommended by the psychiatrist} I saw him by myself. I'm definitely a transsexual person more than a psychotic person. The new therapist that 

[Gina Taylor]

You have a right to know what this diagnosis is based on. You also have a right to know how you he thinks this medicine will help you. He's your psychiatrist, not God. He doesn't command you.

Believe me Suzi, I'm gonna have my pages of notes when I see him next month!

[Gina Taylor]

Gina, I'm really reluctant to judge this guy, since I haven't met you or him.

But this smells to high heaven. He's treating GID as if it is a psychiatric disorder. We know conclusively that it isn't.

Please, please, please, find another psychiatrist. I have MAJOR doubts about whether this one isn't giving you treatment that may make you FAR WORSE than you started.

Thanks Suzi for bringing this to my attention. This is one thing I'll definitely be bringing up to him when I see him next month.

[Gina Taylor]

Gina Hugs,

I an not a doctor but another opinion for the meds may be warrented.

I'll definitely be checking this one out. But as said, I'm not taking any more of them. Especially after what my mom said.

[Gina Taylor]

Something tells me this doctor is giving you something you dont need.

That's what I'm thinking!

[Marieee]

I'am sorry things between you and your mom and to come down to separation.

I hope everything continues to go well with your new home and your landlord sounds like a blessing!

Oh and that Doc seems dangerous! Don't trust them hun!

[Cindy]

Moderation.

OK let us be supportive and not critical.

Gina is between a rock and a hard place so let us reflect on that please.

Thank You

Cindy

And this is not directed at any individual.

[Ms Grace]

The important thing is that Gina is well and safe.

[Gina Taylor]

From what I've read, I am depressed at times for certain reasons, but if Schizophrenia is usually first diagnosed in their late teens or early to late 20's, why am I being diagnosed now at 45 years of age? I told the psychiatrist that I had lost track of time for a moment but that was back in 2004. It's not happened since. I've taken psychotherapy with my therapist for ten months, and my therapist feels that my mood has been even and he also feels that I don't hear voices or see imaginary people, so I'm not delusional.

[Ms Grace]

Yes, obviously I don't know you in person but from the way you write here there seems to be nothing to indicate a schizophrenic or bipolar condition. Gina, I can tell you love and respect your mother very much, but you're a grown woman and there's no need for her to be a part of your psych sessions unless it's for some kind of joint counselling; and in which case she should be talking about her feelings not telling the psych about "what's wrong with you". I hate to say it, hate to be judgemental, but she sounds like she is being very manipulative and controlling. The psych seems like the worst kind of shrink quack, diagnosing on the say so of another person (and probably his own prejudices) instead of the facts as they present themselves. It seems clear that acceptance and approval from your mother means a lot to you but this is your life, not hers - you're an adult now and have your own life to live. No doubt your mother loves you very much, but she sounds afraid and her deeply religious perspective appears to be interpreting your "behaviour" in a very prejudiced light. I'm not suggesting cutting your ties, certainly continue to work towards reconciliation but it should be on your terms, not hers. Be well!

[manbreast]

good luck Gina and take care of yourself i know how it is to be alone but happy you must live your life as your inner feelings guide you

[Gina Taylor]

First off, I'd like to thank everyone for their concern for me.

Now Mariee, I agree that it's a shame that it came down to a separation  between myself and my mother, but it's actually worked  out for the better because now I'm able to be my true self more than I was before, which is helping to take away some of my depression.  And yes it is really cool that my landlord is really cool with the way I am.

Thank you Ms. Grace for being so insightful. My mom wasn't really telling the psych how I felt, but was just filling him in in areas that I wasn't able to remember. She has a better memory than I do. That's really the only reason that she goes. But yes she is very manipulating and controlling. But at least the psych had wanted to talk to me and he made that clear to my mom. I have sought her acceptance and approval, but since she has granted me neither, I have more or less just moved on and  continued with my life as it is, because like you said, this is my life not hers, and I'm an adult now and have my own life to live.

Sorry Jordan, but this girl is no longer controlled by others. I made the decision to move out and to start living my life the way that I saw fit.

Over the weekend, I stopped by a pharmacy, and the pharmacist gave me some information on Risperidone, and one thing that I had found out about it is that Risperidone is not for use in psychotic conditions related to dementia, and that it may cause heart failure, sudden death, or pneumonia in older adults with dementia related conditions.

[Gina Taylor]

C'mon Jordan, I don't think if I was controlled as much as you put it that I would be able to find a place to live and move out within three days. In a way my mom was actually happy to see me go, because even she knew that with me staying at her house wasn't gonna last much longer and it was time for me to leave. I may have shown being controlled by her in other ways before, but I've grown stronger. 

[Gina Taylor]

My landlord had a woman over the other night and I heard her talking about the same medication that her father was taking, and I heard her mention that it promotes breast growth. My therapist told me that it should organize my thoughts, so I've started to take it, and I haven't felt any side effects . . .  as of yet. But I do appreciate your concern for me though.