I am scheduled to have my revision surgery May 7th with Dr Toby Meltzer in Phoenix. After robbing my 401k, I was even able to pay for it up front.
It's been such a long and painful journey. I have to keep myself open by dilating twice a day. For those not familiar with my story, I had my SRS last year and it turned into a terrible disaster. I progressively got smaller and smaller to the point that I eventually needed an application of Lidocane 5 inserted with a 1/4" lube inserter.
I have to insert my first application with a q-tip and let it numb for an hour before I can get the lube inserter in place. And even with this, I endure pain so great that it's all I can do to keep from screaming. Long bouts of pain driven tears and crying are the norm.
But alas, May 7th is just around the corner and I pray that this kind of painful exercise will never be needed again. Not to sound like a cry baby but it literally feels like a salted knife being introduced into an open wound.
Finally, I'm writing a memoir and I haven't decided if I will include this part of my journey yet.
Just thought I would keep my friends here updated.
