One of the funny thing I always felt growing up is that I was a lesbian. You see I knew I liked girls at about the same time I realized I wanted to be one. But as much as I like looking at strait girls there was never really That Spark. My dating was alway short lived then I would be alone for a long time. But I always felt like I was a lesbian. So I had assumed that when I transitioned everything would just click and be easy. But as you probably found out already, there are any number of L's and G's that see a T as a wanna be. Or worse, a good number of the girls that where lesbian and matched me some well, saw me as my birth gender. It's been pretty crushing.
Until Now! About a month ago I got a message on PlentyOfFish, the online dating site. I've had an account and my profile was, frankly a veteran. I know all the other vets. I've even talked to a few. But in the relationship I'm the sort of girly outwardly submissive type. I need some one else to Make The Move. It just never feel right when I am the forward one. Worse, when I'm forward, my date expects me to keep taking the lead the whole time.
Well the girl I met, lets call her Jane. No not her name but you lot are touchy about using some ones real name. So, Jane writes me up and we hit it off. But I was away on a job. Gone for atleast 10 more days. And sure as poop floats if you are eating an excess of fat. When you meet some one online, they are going to find some one else in that time who's not off of beyond. But that didn't happen, we hit it off. a few days in and we where trading pictures, and well I work industrial. I really didn't want to because acme nut grease isn't the best make up, and my hard hat does NOT match my shoes. But she liked me.
And thats when the scary part came. she found out that face book lets you send voice messages. and she sent me the sweetest things! Only she wanted me to send something back.... I have an ok voice. I don't get clocked by muggles but I mean. I don't think I sound sexy or anything. But she likes my voice!
Wow, 2 hurdles down and only the biggest one left to go right? Does she know WHAT I am? Your thinking something like, it doesn't matter. Right? maybe that if I was post SRS I would never need to tell. But I'm not. and frankly I want kids. So it is kind of a big deal to me. And "I'm an incredibly nerdy transexual girl" was the very first line on my page. But what if she missed that. Oh god I'm getting so far in. what will she do if she doesn't know and I tell her? Maybe I should wait and tell her on our first date? or maybe.... Well maybe just as I start to worry she will casually ask, if there anything she needs to know about her side of dating a transexual.....
So yes that happened. I've been seeing Jane for about a month now and we are just so comfortable together. Half my wardrobe is in her spare closet. And it turns out that you can DO IT, if your on HRT. It's not as easy but that kind of make it more special.
Shes amazing. Jane owns her own home, and works as a trucker of all things. Shes all of 120lbs and so pretty I make happy doggy noise. But we both travel so she won't hold it against me, that I'm gone. we love doing the same things. and her dogs are adorable. My head is spinning
So yes.... That Just Happened.
