OK here is the thing - I have had a remarkable walk with Christ, seriously, and I still do. There have been direct interventions, divine appointments, messages in dreams and visions, a good understanding of scripture, and it started early in life. It got even more intense when I had fallen to severe alcoholism - triggered and made worse from unaccepted dysphoria - and got sober 30 years ago, with severe withdrawl. The only thing that kept me from drinking was God. And I didn't really know who He was back then, that came later, in His own time of revelation as He wove the pattern of my life together to suit Him. I am a strong AA member, I rely on God to stay alive.
Then came the crash, when I could no longer win against the dysphoria, which I thought and was trained I was supposed to fight. I no longer believe that was a mistake, I believe there is a serious physical reason I am MTF TS. The crash was November 2012.
So in the meltdown, He came to my wife via direct vision and told her not to fear, and she stayed. She has a hard time with it but we remain very close.
He came to me at the same time and said "Trust me." When I lose that center, I start to lose my sanity.
This is real, I am not making it up.
There are other things now as we go later, there is the support system, the prayer partners, but there is the communion with Him in prayer that is priceless to me. He answered my heart cries- including the one for hormones - and I am still alive. And my shrink says I am remarkably mentally healthy.
That witness of the Spirit, that communion, that knowing that He is there, feeling Him, keeps me sane. When I get too much into my head, including in some of the God Breathed scriptures and their misinterpretations or misunderstandings, I can lose it. But when I get into the relational part of it, I am safe.
So my question to the transgendered dear friends on this site is - have you won through in prayer to recieving this? Is it the head or the heart? The heart of God... my hero for sure...
Have you got that assurance from Him that He has you covered, that you remain in His will and are dear to His heart?
I can guarantee that we are precious to Him. Of all people, we need Him so badly to cope, to live... and He loves those who know they need Him. It is His nature.
So I am wondering if anyone else has had that direct assurance from Jesus that He is with us, before and after transition.
I could go on and on and on....
There is a saying that experience wins out over head knowledge. What is your experience with Jesus transitioned?
Just wanted to reach out. NOBODY has the right to try to cut you off from Christ's love. And those who are in deliberate sin can't have that communion (debatable? scriptural I think) - so the witness of having Christ but being conflicted about church stuff would indicate to me that we are safe, and can look forward to a huge hug up there while our tears get dried on the other side of life, in whatever body He needs us to have.
Any thoughts or reactions, my family?
God Bless You. I mean it.
