First of all,
Hello to everyone !
My main language is french but I'll do my best not to destroy every english rules
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I'd like to thanks Susan for starting this forum and all of you to participate so actively. This forum has been one of my first reference to understand and guide myself through all the steps and challenges that transition is. Your stories and life experiences has stopped my anxiety more than once.
Here a little physical description about me (Maybe I would put some pictures when I'll be more confident)
Age : 21
Hair : red (or ginger if you prefer)
Height : 5ft5in or 165cm
Weight : 122 pounds or 55.5kg
I started HRT 2 months ago and I must say that changes happen more quickly that I was imagining.
Well, at the exeption of my broad shoulder and my litghtly ass-shaped chin(as majority of men) I think that I'm a bit lucky about my face and body shape.
My life have been an hell until I decided to do a final try. Like many of you I had to see a lot of different psychologist before finding one that would finally listen to me, the first one at 6 years old when I first realized that were something wrong with me. After this first unsuccessful attempt I began to fake emotions and feelings to look just normal.
Studied how men were acting and how they were moving, talking and all to copy the lifestyle. Faking everything has made my teenage looks easier, a lot of friends, good grades, but I was only a doll living with no real feelings except sadness and anger against life and society that cannot understand me (probably depression from long ago so it looked even worst at this time).
I still had hope so in my last high school year I tried again to see a psychologist ( now that I had information on the subject I could explain myself better I thought.), but another time he tried to makes me change my mind and offered me some some pills to control my depression.
That was enought I decided to abandon everything. I was already drinking alcool and taking drugs to forget about my problems but now there were no control anymore. I lost few weeks of my life, so badly stoned that I wasn't even aware that I was still alive.
When I finally got a kind of calm in my life, I decided to try one last time and finally I had chance because this psychologist completely changed my life. Not only he listened to me for my gender disphoria but he helped me with every others aspects of my life. That was 1 year and a half ago.
I know that most of you lived something similar or worst so that's why I won't go deeper in details (as many are missing).
So in this last 1 1/2 year I had to Detox myself from Alcool and all the strong drugs I was addict to. I also lose about 115 pounds and found some real friends that accept me and that I can rely on. And I found 4 months ago with the help of my psychologist this doctor that accepted to take me as her patient and that now prescribe my hormones.
Right now I'm at the point of sharing with others and started to live, Gathering money for my future surgeries and expecting more changes from my HRT.
I must say that I love my red hair but when I learned that most laser were not effective they seemed less attractive
. I'm under intensive electrolysis epilation right now.
Have a nice day everyone, I hope that I will be able to join the community soon
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