You want to know the why of it, okay, I have a few questions. How long have you been taking hormones? Has it caused a change (even a small one) in your appearance and/or behavior? Be as objective as you can be. If at all do-able, get the opinion of someone that you feel safe about and can trust with the information, who Knew you before and knows you now, etc. How important is it for you to know what's going on? Is it important enough for you to possibly risk telling someone that you're questionable about if necessary? I think you should approach matters in this sort of way. Good luck sweetie.