Question for all MtF's

[Chic]

Before transitioning, I'm guessing you may have had a mental image of what you expected or thought you might look like after transitioning. Did your prediction come true? Do you look like you expected? Is it a better or worse result?

For those of you who haven't transitioned yet and are planning to, what do you expect? What is your prediction for how you will look during and after transition?

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I look pretty much as I expected. But I had low expectations going into it anyway.

[justpat]

  Yes, I will make one ugly old woman, but that's me and I am happy with that because it has brought me to an inner piece I have never known in my life.  Pat

[Miss_Bungle1991]

  Yes, I will make one ugly old woman, but that's me and I am happy with that because it has brought me to an inner piece I have never known in my life.  Pat

Well, I'm not ugly, but I seem to pass okay out in public. That's good enough for me.

[Missadventure]

I spent so many decades training my brain to NOT think about it, so now that I am willing to think about it, my brain wont comply 

However, I did turn to photoshop and created an artist rendering of "in my wildest dreams will I look like this one day"



Hopefully I can at least come close.

Currently on a good day I look like this:

[Carrie Liz]

I'm going to be honest, I had no idea what I was going to look like. All I had going in was hope. I'd seen some truly amazing transformations through Youtube videos, and I just had blind faith that somehow it would work out.

It was hard to hold on to that hope, since I was so big and had so many masculine body features to start out with. My roommate even told me, before I had taken a single hormone, "If you want my honest opinion, I think you'd make an ugly woman."

It took around 4 months on hormones before I started seeing her... that beautiful female self that was slowly emerging. And I saw how it was going to work. And that feeling was unlike anything else in the world... it was like meeting myself anew for the first time... just this feeling of sheer and utter completeness, as for the first time in my life I saw what truly appeared to be a female version of myself. And she was more than I could ever have hoped for. It was surreal, having a picture of me that I was actually happy with. For almost a month straight, I was putting on that wig almost every single day, just so that I could get a glimpse of her. And at that moment, I realized, I don't have an idealized version of a female self that I want to live up to... all I want is to be able to see her in the mirror every single day.

Unfortunately, I'm not there yet. My true female self, the one that doesn't require that "Vintage Vixen" wig in order to look that way, is still engaged in the long arduous process of emerging. But I'm slowly seeing her emerge more and more with every single day.

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Chic,

Interesting question. But to answer it; No. I've always been at peace as to my looks. It's what I was born with and what I've grown to love. It's been very unimportant. It's what grew from the inside that radiated outwardly that concerned me the most. I'm happy with how that's transpired. My avatar is me. Nothing more, nothing less. Except for the lack of makeup 

Hope you are satisfied with what you are blessed with

Huggs
Catherine

[BunnyBee]

I look about like I would have hoped.  Maybe slightly broader shoulders and smaller boobs than I would have dreamed for, but honestly it's fine .  Mostly, I match the image I have of myself in my head, except when I have that dysmorphia thing going on, which happens and is annoying.

[sam79]

I'm in agreement with others, great question .

Before starting transition, I had no idea what i might end up looking like. In fact for a time I grew overly anxious about that, even trying my novice hand at modifying photos, but I could never create a girl out of them. Partially because I didn't know what gender markers there were, and I was terrible at any photo editing. So, when starting transition, I didn't care what I would look like, so long as I pass for female.

And now that I'm living the right life, it's odd... while I don't look too dissimilar to my former self, but I just don't see 'him' any more. More importantly, I seem to pass for female without worry. And I'll never win any sort of beauty contest, but that's OK. I don't need that to be the proud and assertive woman I am.

[Shana-chan]

Well, I'll be honest, I have yet to even start hormones but would LOVE to start on E and maybe a few others like blockers this year and if I can do it, you better believe I will with no hesitation! So, as to my appearance, well, for all my life I didn't like what I saw in the mirror for various reasons. Then, I started accepting myself for all that I am and also not putting as much emphasis on stuff such as "oh this hair on my body is a male trait" since I realized that even woman could get hair all over their bodies, and MUCH more. It really just comes down to hormones and genetics and after accepting myself, not to mention growing my hair long and also knowing I already look like a woman, it made me very happy. So, what do I envision/hope for? Honestly I hope to be one of the hot and sexy woman we see out there. The ones that are just so beautiful and attractive, but, reality is that I don't know if that will ever happen, I can hope though but, for what I'm expecting to be more of the out come, I don't think my expectations are too farfetched but the hot and sex more than likely is out of my reach. lol

[ToniB]

Hi all I am hoping for with transition is that I like the person I see in the Mirror .I will never be pretty But the Lady I see in the Mirror when i am Dressed is a hell of a lot better than the person I see when I am in drab.I come to life and feel so happy and at ease with Myself when dressed .I dont even need to wear makeup to feel better in myself .

Love Anita B

[JRD]

I really didn't have any expectations. I just needed to do something regardless of how it turned out. I'm ok with the results for the most part, but there are some disappointments, but I deal with it and go on.

[FalseHybridPrincess]

Im having a clear image on my mind about myself,,,she doesnt look that different from what I look now so maybe with a bit more of hormone magic and maybe a bit of ffs I ll be fine...

Im only one month on hrt,,,Im impatient as a person and this makes things difficult,,,but I wont give up I ll go through all this journey with hope.

[kathyk]

I'm pleasantly surprised by what's happen.  I don't look as nice as my older sisters, but I ended up with a lot of the qualities of my mother when she was very old.  Although my mom had a much more feminine look, HRT has brought out many of her qualities in my facial features.  Kind of disturbing to look in a mirror and see your mom ... 

.... Now 2 years down the road, from which 1.5 years of living full time. No, I didn't go FT prematurely, it was just the right time since I was mostly taken for a girl even in guy's clothes, and I was recommended by my endo to go FT!

We all kind of know when it's right to go FT.  I actually started about a month ahead of schedule because I had to, and couldn't wait any longer.  It's incredibly liberating, and it completely eliminated the stress of living a part -time life.  You're suddenly out to everyone, but it just doesn't matter.

[suzifrommd]

I look much better than I ever dared dream. I'm still nowhere near as good looking as I was a man, but given that I pay very little attention to makeup, I'm pretty happy with the results.

[allisonsteph]

I love this question...

I just started Spiro a couple of weeks ago and am hoping to add Estrogen very soon. I'm honestly not sure what to expect. I was fortunate enough to have a friend do a makeover for me for my first public outing as a woman a few years ago. I was stunned by the results, and still go back and look at the pictures from that night at least once a week. So while I'm trying not to get my hopes too high, at the same time I know I can be beautiful. As far as the body changes go, I honestly have no idea what I will look like and I am excited to to see.

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi allisonsteph,

Just remember once you go on HT, not only will it put the final polish on what nature already blessed you with; it will also change your "brain vision" of how you look and feel. That's the thing o look forward to.

Huggs
Catherine

[Jessica Merriman]

I had no expectations just the nervousness most of us face. I think I turned out very well and with my level of confidence have not had one bad experience passing yet. I went from zero to Full Time completely passing on Part Time. When I let my preconceived ideas and fears go everything just fell into place. I could never go back to "him" ever again.

[LittleEmily24]

honestly, my expectations of how i'll look are more specific to areas of my body instead of an entire image. All in All i expect to look like a girl what i expect to change most is simply my body hair and my facial appearance... and some hips would be great. Other than that i just want to be able to go to the beach in a bikini. (can't do it now because my body hair is just too course and too noticeable even after shaving, and my chest is still too man-scale broad)

I started going FT only 2 weeks ago (with the exception of not doing 100% FT at work only because my parents and co-workers needed time to accept the change, so i'm slowly going FT at work with the exception that I don't wear male clothes anymore, but for the sake of work i wear tight jeans and a girl tee or blouse and i bring my purse, still no make-up or bra.) when im not at work, i am FT no matter where i go, whether its to do groceries or to go out with friends to a bar or club.

[stephaniec]

I had a pretty good Idea. I've been dressing up and using make up a long time. I took pictures of my face wile dressed up. Then I would photo copy the pictures in black and white. You can see the structure of the face better. I have a lot of my mother features. Hopefully HRT will make these features more prominent . I've been on HRT for 4 months and it looks like it could be heading that way. I catch glimpses of a female face in different degrees of lighting. There are some shades of light that really bring out the feminine features quite well.