Even though we all are in the fight for justice, and tolerance for those bestowed with Nature's trans gift
some do venture to the edge of sanity to bring this illusive reality of genuine representation and embodiment of woman's body and mind into every day reality.
From my own perspective, the impossible dream had turned into tangible life of a woman who once was Transgendered.
I do recognize that such understanding may not be as universal as I would expect, and for some, being transgender brings certain comfort and uniqueness, however in my eyes as well as every day experience, I could not settle for the middle ground but had to pursue entirety of being, entirety of embodiment of who I already was.
As I had imagined in childhood, laying down in my bed, ready to fall into a dream, I would see a girl, playing, being, engaging in life. She wasn't anything trans, yet she was a girl never the less.
A lot of life had passed until the moment I hoped would never come, and at that age my dream felt more like an impossible nightmare rather then beginning of a new, genuine life.
Yes, the force of truth was so strong that it won over the insecurities and perceived comfort of denial.
As I had set out to do the impossible, I also set out to end the string of lies, deceit, and pretends.
I had no idea what shall come of me, but somehow I never given to the gray reality, yet remained dreaming that impossible dream, that I shall finally allow her to guide my heart, and submit my ego and strive into her hands.
Well, impossible had come true and reality had surpassed wildest expectations.
Starting new life at 44 and now 3 years later living entirely and fulfilled.
Never give in to pain, power through toward your dream, regardless of how impossible it sounds, you and only you hold the power of the universe, and with truth and love at your side everything is possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
