I should be starting therapy next week, and have found a contentment with who I am and where I am going.
I won't be posting anymore, well, for a while anyway. Not sure if my posts are helping anyone besides myself, and they really take a lot out of me emotionally. They are too serious and long winded, and while in person I may occasionally be long winded I am rarely serious.

Just wanted to say a few things first.
You girls are all fantastic!
Some are people I could sit and chat with for hours, we have that much in common.
Some are so much fun, they always make me smile.
Some I see a lot of myself in when I was younger. Only, er... more feminine. Strong, lots of attitude and the moxie to back it up.
Some I just want to hug and say,"It's ok, just breathe we will get through this together. Take it one day at a time. I am here for you."
Some have made it through to the other side, or have found their center. They encourage me and serve as an inspiration.
Thank You All!
I will be here, just a message away, if anyone needs to talk or just a shoulder to cry on.
"Friendship is like peeing on yourself: Everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings."
Michelle