Who I Am...I was born with the body of a male and have lived over fifty years of my life acting out the gender role of a male. But I've learned, over time, that I've been suppressing an important part of myself. After the death of my parents I felt it was time, that I had the freedom, to be true to who I was inside. It was time to heal my spirit and stop hiding who I truly am and show the world.
After years of research I believe I'm a Two-Spirited person or feminine male.
(Two-Spirited is a Native American term.) Gender fluid might also apply. Although these labels do not accurately describe who I am, it's a first step. But it is important to understand that I lean toward the feminine and less toward the masculine. But I do not want to be only female.
(I do have that dream from time to time that I have the body of a female.) I now know I must not suppress my masculine gender either.
I'm comfortable being called by male or female terms. I still have my male name I was born with. Everyday I usually wear, what some consider, feminine clothing. I love skirts, usually below the knee. But the rest is usually a mix of masculine and feminine styles. This can vary depending on how I feel. I do not wear makeup. My face looks masculine even though I wear shoulder length hair and ear rings. I do not consider this cross-dressing since females wear a variety of male clothes without being labeled as such. I'm not trying to hide my male body.
It's been very important for me to be myself and not hide who I am to the world.
(Although I do hide my identity on the web for safety.) I feel my sex does not determine who I am inside or how I should feel about myself. My gender should not determined by what is between my legs. My gender is between my ears. I will not conform my gender or my sex to fit societies idea of only two genders, male and female. It's not who I am inside.
Why I'm Here...I'm here to contribute to the community in a positive way by sharing my own journey of self discovery. I hope by sharing who I am I can encourage another person to not be afraid of who they are inside. It's OK to be yourself even if that means going against the norms.
Thank you for reading this and I look forward to your comments.
