Hi everyone,
my name is Tristan, I'm 33 and I'm french.
I'm a trans guy. A new trans guy... It took me 22 years to put a word on who I am. I've always known something was going on, I've always been interested by transgender people, I've wached documentaries, movies, read articles, etc. And I've always been attracted to gay themed movies, books, and so on. I've never understood the link between those two things until I've watched a movie called Romeos about a trans gay man.
Then it hit me : I'm a trans gay man! It was on december 17, two months ago! But I've already told my family, my friends and my husband. Yep, I'm married but my husband told me he was also attracted to men. I feel very lucky, because I love him, we've been together for 12 years. I feel lucky too because all my friends and family had the best reaction. I'm surrounded by people who love me. I didn't know..! I swear I didn't know that so many people loved me that much. I feel so happy, now. I've never been that happy.
I started to gain weight when I was 11. Two months ago I weighed 343lbs, now I'm 306. I've lost weigh because I don't need it anymore. I don't eat like I used to. I've started to exercise and I love it.
I used to be suicidal, but now I'm afraid to die. I want a healthy body, a healthy life, I want to live as long as possible.
There are french FTM forums but it's hard to find trans gay men, and married trans gay men. I'd like to share my experience with someone like me because I'm worried about my husband.
And also FTM who are obese. I think I'm not obese anymore, that's very clear in my mind, but for now I'm still overweight. And I'm looking for tips about binders and son on.
I intend to start hormone therapy and to have chest surgery. For the rest, I really don't know.
I have an appointment with a psychiatrist at the end of the month. I don't know when he will allow me to start T. Soon, I hope!
I haven't read the forum so I'm sure I'll find many answers.
Thanks for reading and I apologize for all the mistakes.
Tristan
