Hi Everyone
I'm a fairly new arrival but have been active on some forums this week. I am English, but have lived in Spain for almost 15 years. I don't teach languages (although I speak 3 of 'em), or sell property or insurance (the usual suspects). Rather, I am a gainfully employed engineer who likes high-heeled boots, pretty clothes and people with sexy, optimistic and articulate minds
Oh, and cookin', and entertainin' - two of my favourite things!
Gawsh, where to start? Well, I knew I wasn't really a boy from around the time I was 6, and in my mid 20s I seriously considered transitioning completely, but was just too chicken. Got married to a girl; was happy for over a decade; and then needed to be honest and explore myself, which I have been doing most happily for the last 2 years after I parted with my then wife. Since that time I have had a couple of boyfriends who have been quite accepting of this delicate boy who wants to be a girl.
A transwoman, whose writings I have read, described the moment of knowing that you want to go ahead with transition as when an alarm goes off. You might not expect it; it just goes off and then you find yourself reacting. That's what happened to me: late in 2013 I very tentatively and skeptically tried a phytoestrogenic product (highly ill-advised), and wow, my body began to change. It was a revelation - I was over the moon! Since then I have visited my local trans support center, been to see a highly regarded gender identity clinic here in Madrid, and hopefully will begin proper HRT in March. Yay!
I'm quite a goal-oriented person, but transition is so laden with uncertainties that it's just not possible to say where I will "end up", although if I could hit a switch and wake up as a women I'd do it. Physically, from the neck down I'm little and petite, so that would be the easy part. But from the neck up, oh dear, we would have a LOT of work to do, except in my mind, which is ready and malleable. So I'm just gonna enjoy the journey, and let it take me broadly wherever it goes, always with my hand on the tiller so as to avoid the sharp and pointy rocks he he.
Huys to y'all..!
Julia (depuis 2004)
