Well okay, I guess I'll keep updating since there are a few of you who find this useful and it's good for me to figure out how I think. Now the weekend is over and so far here's what happened. Probably easier to give people nicknames because it's kinda hard to keep track. Still a bit heartsick over:
J, who I'll call Social Worker Guy: we're taking a two-week break while he figures out whether he can handle me being trans. I haven't fallen for anyone this hard this fast in my life.
This weekend went out with:
J the Massage Guy: this was our third date and I spent the night at his place Friday. I thought he was 30 but he's actually about to turn 32 so a bit older than I thought but still, I hesitate about the age difference (I'm 38). That said, he's fun and smart and great in bed and, most importantly, super trans-friendly. He also sent me this cute video: . Definitely plan to see him again.
L the Psychiatrist Guy: had drinks on Friday, was surprisingly wonderful and down-to-earth, really attractive and smells amazing (I'm very sensitive to smell). I still have this feeling he's a tiny bit self-involved, and I am too, so that might not be good. But we'll see... going out with him next Thursday or Friday.
A the Finance Guy: fantastic and *tall* (6'3") and queer-friendly, but I didn't feel a lot of spark. So I guess I'll convert him into a friend.
N the Computer Guy: just took a walk with him to Central Park and had coffee. Also really cute and nice but my ex is a programmer so I'm wary. Might go on a second date if I have time.
N the Audio Guy: we were supposed to have coffee but he wasn't feeling well. However, our text rapport has been really amazing so that has a lot of potential too. So I'll definitely see him next weekend if not sooner. Actually, he just texted and we might have breakfast tomorrow.
I talked to my best friend about the whole situation and she thinks that I might have to let Social Worker Guy go, or at least give other people more of a chance. If he's taking it this hard it may not bode well for the long-term potential of the relationship. That's hard for me to see right now because I'm so smitten with him, but we'll see. I won't know what he'll end up proposing until we see each other two weeks from now. But maybe it'll put less pressure on the relationship if we just keep going out on dates and see what happens, rather than committing to a relationship at this point. We'll see.
