Unexpected emotional responses.

[Erica_Y]

I used to be very angry, get fustrated real easily and driving on the roads in traffic would boil my blood. When I went on HRT is was amazing the difference it made in my inner peace and control of emotions. HRT has done wonders for balancing out myself and for putting allot of emotional state issues behind me. I liken it to putting diesel in a gas petrol car. It runs like crap, sputters is contankerous and just not fun. That was me on testosterone big time. Since HRT many things have now made sence emotionally and mentally and my ability to feel and control my anger has improved a 1000% so it is so hard to say how things roll on HRT everyone is unique. I am not on any progesterone  only E and spiro at this time. When my E does was lower at the start I did feel more swingly in emotions but that could have been the honeymoon phase at the beginning.

[LittleEmily24]

I used to be very angry, get fustrated real easily and driving on the roads in traffic would boil my blood. When I went on HRT is was amazing the difference it made in my inner peace and control of emotions. HRT has done wonders for balancing out myself and for putting allot of emotional state issues behind me. I liken it to putting diesel in a gas petrol car. It runs like crap, sputters is contankerous and just not fun. That was me on testosterone big time. Since HRT many things have now made sence emotionally and mentally and my ability to feel and control my anger has improved a 1000% so it is so hard to say how things roll on HRT everyone is unique. I am not on any progesterone  only E and spiro at this time. When my E does was lower at the start I did feel more swingly in emotions but that could have been the honeymoon phase at the beginning.

I want this... i was always a very angry person... and while my anger has decreased over the last year purely as a result of coming to terms with myself and who I am, since starting HRT, I feel myself get more angry when I'm angry, and more easily annoyed and agitated. Where before i use to bitch and moan about people cutting me off, NOW I am inclined to give them the finger and provoke a physical altercation... where back then I would react passive-aggressively to my male name or pronouns being used, now I get fuming and want to break glass or punch a wall... I dont like this... i was under the impression that I would get inner peace, not inner chaos and flames. I feel like I'm back in ->-bleeped-<-ing middle school again, where my anger use to take control of me and I only saw red... this was not what i signed up for. Testosterone turned me into an irrational and explosive mess for the majority of my life and now its being made worse by something I can't determine. I really do hope its the Medroxyprogesterone that is causing this, and if it is, I can't imagine why anyone would want to be on that.

[EllieM]

Actually, I find I have become somewhat mellow. I don't get as angry as I used to, but I express my emotions more readily, for instance I cry more easily now and when I get really pissed off I don't hold it in, although I'm more vocal and less physical. I think you still have some brain effect from T because you say you are using spiro, which blocks uptake. I'm on suprefact which actually supresses the production of T. I can't talk about the difference between P and No-P because my endo put me on micronized P from day 1 (and micronized E as well).