It's a nice sentiment, I've been there in spades. Cried myself to sleep more times than I care to remember during my first attempt at transition. But it wasn't because I was transgender it was because I couldn't accept myself, because I hated myself and my body, hated cis women for having what I didn't...and it got me nowhere except feeling more miserable and drowning in more self pity than my friends could cope with.
These days, it's a different story. I don't hate myself or my appearance or cis women. I have accepted that I am transgender and the fact that I need to move through hell and high water to get what I want and need. I'm taking no prisoners. Nothing is getting in the way of me feeling happy just because I was born with the wrong chromosomes or genitals, or because cis gendered society has decided I suffer from a "disorder" and put up road blocks to "normalcy" at every turn they can think of. Screw that!
To all you young trans* folk especially I say you have your whole life to live for, why spend it hating yourself? Yes it's tough, yes it's horrible, yes it's unfair - but you are not ogres, you are not frauds, you are not ugly...you are beautiful human beings and you can and will reach your goals. Not today maybe, not tomorrow, not next week or month or maybe not even next year. It's intolerable I know, but in the grand scheme of your hopefully long and fulfilled life it is but a blip. Yet a minute, an hour, day, week, month, year of hating yourself makes the journey seem so much longer, so much more miserable, the burden is often too much to bear. Accepting yourself, loving yourself doesn't have to mean letting go of those goals to become the gender you identify as...but it does mean dropping the burden of misery and hating your appearance, your body, your lot in life. It allows you to live your life with direction and purpose and love.
Can I suggest the month should be "self hate no more"...there is nothing inherently wrong with being transgender, just how we view it.
