Androgynity and HRT

[Mirian]

Dear Mar 10,1993,
isn't calling yourself with a number a bit sad ? There's already our society which
often deems us as just numbers...

However, about your HRT, please read ! How stupid I am not having thought suddently of
GNRH Analogues ! Those could really be the answer for you !
Read more here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hormone_replacement_therapy_(male-to-female)
They pretty freeze your sexual development until you suspend them, and without inducing
any female tract (like breast).
If you really have troubles finding a doctor in your country available to give them to
you, then drive to another near country, if you can. Please consider that GNRH Analogues
are currently taken into account by world standards of care for TG people, and any good
gender care pratictioner MUST be aware of what to do in your situation.

Please consider that I also when I was at your stage could say the very same things:
I didn't know who I was, I was simply myself !!!
And I NEVER DRESSED UP LIKE A GIRL before I realized completely I was one ! Also I
was reluctant enough to dress like a girl before SRS because I technically felt as a
transvestite that way, something I repelled.

Oh, I was bullied since at 6 I went out to go to school. Nice, huh ? And I didn't know
why they hated me so strongly, at one stage when I didn't even know anything about
sex, gender, or even love. And well I'm not Asperger's but at some point I almost became
so, because I had to close into my world to live on. Always surrounded by hate.
To the point that I left school at 16, and I'm just HAPPY to have done that, ->-bleeped-<- !

Partially I remained locked forever inside my inner world, even today.

Well you're objectively beauty, pretty, handsome, call it as you prefer. Even if you don't
realize or nobody ever told you that. Never forget: more than we can imagine, people
hate us just for ENVY, or because they like us too much. Never feel inferior to them,
often they are the inferior ones - thus they hate, they can't really do anything else.

When I was a child, they hated me simply because they felt attracted by me, seeing a girl in me,
cos such I appeared since I was born, but the same time they refused this idea, of course,
it's about something they must remove, exorcize, it would be "gaysh" otherwise... and they're bulls,
not persons.

Remember: bulls exorcize the hell or desert they have inside through hate and violence.
This is the rule, worldwide. I learnt that.

I wish you every good. Take care, love yourself and do everything you can for your
good and to be happy !
Miriam

[930310]

Hi again Miriam(n)!
I call myself 930310 everywhere on the internet and have done so since at least June 27th 2006 when I started my Youtube account, it isn't to hard to find my name if you search for it. If you want to hear it it's Anders Mikael Jimmy Lindberg...
When I was bullied I was abused got several scars in the back of my head and they crushed my nose at one time too. I had to go with a special "guard" that protected me from them and them from me, since I was so fed up I just attacked if they gave me the chance. That was then and now it's time to look ahead. I've seen psychologists since I was eight years old and not a single time have we come to talk about gender and identity.

Thanks for the tips about GNRH Analogues!

[930310]

Also I think that I may be to old for those, I turn 21 in just a week.

[KayXo]

Good luck with everything. Great to hear your story Mirian. I can relate to a lot of what both of u said. Bullying was terrible when I was little, came home everyday crying. Never fought back. Was just never the fighting type, I'd injure myself before I injured anyone else. BUT, if I got real mad, I could really hurt someone.

Anywho...I think Mirian's advice is very sound. Hope everything turns out in your favor, no matter who you choose to be. 

[KayXo]

Also I think that I may be to old for those, I turn 21 in just a week.

There is no age for that. Analogues are used in young and older transsexual women, all over the world.
I would also advise taking a small amount of estrogen with such a drug as too little androgen might make you feel and look not so good in the long-term.  You need to replace the androgen with estrogen.

[930310]

There is no age for that. Analogues are used in young and older transsexual women, all over the world.

Ok, Wikipedia said it was for adolescents, when do you stop being that?

[Julia-Madrid]

Hi 930310

Many of us realise in our 20s that our body doesn't match what our mind wants it to be.  My recommendation is to start by seeing a psychologist, and  change your therapist if you don't feel that you are working well together.   Mine helped show me all of the doors and helped me find all of the keys, but it took a year or maybe a bit more to reach that point.  And it has taken me another 20 years to be brave enough to use the keys.  But this is part of a wonderful journey of self-discovery:  some of it will be great; some will be totally terrifying.  But you will learn a huge amount about yourself in the process, and once you've done that, you'll know whether HRT is the right choice.

Good luck!

[930310]

Hi 930310

Many of us realise in our 20s that our body doesn't match what our mind wants it to be.  My recommendation is to start by seeing a psychologist, and  change your therapist if you don't feel that you are working well together.   Mine helped show me all of the doors and helped me find all of the keys, but it took a year or maybe a bit more to reach that point.  And it has taken me another 20 years to be brave enough to use the keys.  But this is part of a wonderful journey of self-discovery:  some of it will be great; some will be totally terrifying.  But you will learn a huge amount about yourself in the process, and once you've done that, you'll know whether HRT is the right choice.

Good luck!

I sure do hope so. Thanks for your support!

[Mirian]

Anders, more 20 cents from me (you're RICH now )

NO, it's not too late to start GNRH-A, as they already told you. BUT my viewpoint is a bit
different and I will explain you now. I would suggest you instead not to lose time, try to
get them as soon as you can, if you really don't want to masculize further. Maybe not
everybody will agree on my argument but I'm strongly convinced by evidence. During my
life I got the impression that some boy develops early, some other later. But usually
they all develop (read: get ugly, using my jargon ) sooner or later. I can tell it since
I observe such things A LOT since I was born...
You're still androginous NOW at 21, but consider that when you're 30 your body might
have changed a LOT. So, if you don't want to go into troubles, consider not to waste
too much time, believe me. You could then experience SEVERE disphoria some day if you
don't block your masculinization process NOW. And disphoria is SCARY, I hope
you'll never experience it fully. You're still in time NOW, but it may be too late
tomorrow.

Oh, aren't you concerned of putting your story and your full name here ? Please be
very cautious ! Anybody (even your "enemies") can look inside this forum even without
registering ! Please pay attention...

Then... Kay, Anders, I won't speak of bullism furtherly here since we'd go offtopic,
but there would actually be soooooo many things to tell about it to write a book.
I, as a woman, can't stand violence, and I am perhaps not even able to fight. And
my point, back then, was that the problem was just me, if they hated me, it was about
be not being normal, so I simply suffered and tried to understand what was wrong with me.
But NOW, Anders, if it happened to me to face those who beat you, you can't imagine WHAT
I would do to them. As a minimum I would strip their sticks off by bites. ->-bleeped-<-.

PS I'm Miriam (codename) on these forums, simply when I tried to subcribe as Miriam I
couldn't because this name was perhaps already in use, so I had to put Mirian. My real name
of course I'll never publish here for privacy and security reasons.

[930310]

Hi, I go by the name Jimmy, my parents just put them in that order...
I've learned that if you are open about yourself there aren't any surprises or skeletons in the closet, so to say.
Thank you very much for taking your time to reply and I am going to see what happens during the next weeks. Right now I'm drowning in studies and I've got to have a focused mind when I contact somebody about this.

[Mirian]

Ok... Jimmy