Don't be worried, because if you find out you are wrong you are also going to find out you no longer desire to transition. If that happens you won't miss it, and better to have therapy and test those waters than to take too much into your own hands only to regret things. I know a de-transitioner who is pretty honest about it all and supportive of transgenders, and I know I had a new found respect when I was really uncertain and trying to disprove myself (as was the norm) and was certain to always support both transitioners as well as regretters and more importantly those stuck somewhere in between with a fat heaping of uncertainty filling their brains.
Wanting to get sync'd with ones mind, body, and spirit is a necessary pursuit. However, knowing for sure where you fit on the spectrum is critical for future happiness. It is still possible you are quite possibly both, and in which case you would be best at some tweener stage anyways I suspect. Do not fear your therapy, embrace it with honesty and truthful self evaluation and your therapist will help you make your own decision on what you need to do as you are ready to do it.
You really could be that special person who walks the fine line in between. I seem to be preparing to slowly approach that line, though I suspect I will end up walking completely to the other side to where I always thought I should have been. Yet, I do it slowly since I waited until 45 to accept it I feel there is little sense to rush any of it. Though at times I feel I need to remind myself to stay steady, keep it slow, and not try to take on too much too soon. The good thing is when I am not staring in the mirror, or lamenting about my male voice, I do feel all girl otherwise, as peculiar as that sounds to the rest of the world outside of Susan's.
So keep your chin up, and your honest cap on and all will work out for the best. You may be fluid, and that is pretty awesome! But so is being more of a female or even male. Just do everyone a favor and remember the other sides of the coin from the one you choose, and support us all. As I hope all support you, including you supporting yourself.
Enjoy the self discovery, the journey, as the final destination is never realized until death anyways. By then, you forgot what you were worried about.
