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[WolfieL]

Hello I am Wolfie,

I am currently working on transitioning from a Male to a Female, and commonly use this board for research and support so I figured it was about time I joined, I hope I am welcome here - I have never been very good at fitting in.


Is Wolfie girly enough, my grandmother wanted to give me the name Wolfgang. And I wanted to honor her, she was a champion LGBT rights her entire life; most of her friends where gay throughout the cold-war era; she was the main provider for her family throughout the 60's and she was basically my second parent as my father was abusive and always gone. She was also Cherokee and I take great pride in that heritage. My councilor argued with me for 15 mins that, that name wasn't feminine enough and I wasn't girly enough... But the name is so important to me...

I am 23, unfortunately I am also a high school drop out as I bullied for being a sexual abuse victim till an auto-immune became active and pretty much put my life on hold. Six years has passed since then, and I have helped my mom through 2 cancers and a third one now after coming out. I will have to step up to the plate and guide everyone through this one, but as long as she ends up safe it's fine.

As for transgender things I am working on getting on hormones. I have bought girls cloths and Jewelry and wear nail polish, it calms me down even though I am terrible at it xD. I am working on getting my letter for hormones. I love girls, I have dreamed of my wedding day since I was like 5 and I have wished I could be one for just about as long; when I see a cute girl I am like; "Cute boots, cute pants, nice.... wow much pretty. Since I have come out I have learned to relish these feelings, as I have lived a life where I just ran from fox hole to fox hole dodging as much shrapnel as I could, and every night I would wish that I would wake up else where as a real girl. With a homophobic father (the man who abused me ironically); effeminate affectations were even to the smallest degree were punished severally. I had given up, I didn't know trans existed to the extent that it does, and it renewed my drive in life, now I smile every time I blush; its such a fulfilling feeling.

I am also very afraid at the moment, I opened up my heart and now it feels like now there is so much too lose.

I am a decent writer, I am good with technology, I picked up webdesign when I was 10, I used to ride horses, I enjoy cooking and anything girly in general. I hope to meet some people here that will make me smile, and maybe even blush <3.

[Jamie D]

Greetings, Wolfie!  I think it is a great name and a great way to honor your heritage.

You are a good writer.  If it were me, I would get my HS diploma and get started toward an AA at a community college, or a trade tech degree.  That will go a long way toward helping you have the ability to transition.

Pleased to meet you! 

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[Mal]

Welcome Wolfie!

You're never too old for school, so you can still get a GED or the equivalent if you're in a country other than the USA or Canada, and you can even get accommodations if needed because of health issues, and then go to college, if you want. As another self taught web designer, I know that if you network you may be able to get a job doing that even without a college degree but having at least a GED makes everything easier.

[WolfieL]

Hi Jamie D and Mal it is my pleasure to make your acquaintance ,

I do plan on getting my GED, just the next four months are going to be dedicated to my mom's cancer. My mom's last cancer was a smaller one but the first one was a large kidney cancer which was about 2 months of recovery. This one involves thoracic reconstruction, the first month is going to very much be me coordinating her visitors and people calling querying about her, and taking care of my younger brother who is pre-parkisons. The second month is going to be very much fighting the insurance and coming up with ways to extend her stay in recovery, and the third month will be the hardest where I will basically be coordinating meals and making sure she has enough to drink and generally taking care of everyone. In that time I will work on my writing and advancing my computer knowledge with the free resources Harvard posts on their site. My faimly doctor will be sure to keep on me about completing it trust me .

Thank you, I write superfluously; it helps me get out the feelings that I can not vocalize adequately; I was taught to use a thesaurus at a very young age and that has helped me assimilate and expand my vocabulary at a fairly quick pace. It is also something I enjoy very much; however I do not think my ability are sufficient enough to turn it into a career.

[Jessica Merriman]

A big warm welcome to the family Wolfie! I an so glad you found us here and joined. I found just the other day Native Americans considered us very special. We were called the "People of Two Spirits" and were considered a good thing for the tribe to have. Anyway, feel free to rant, vent, share good news (we like that a lot), learn or just have some fun and meet the rest of the family. Here is a BIG HUG  to welcome you and make you feel right at home, because you now are!

[Jamie D]

Wolfie, I lost my mom to an adrenal carcinoma about six years ago.  She battled it for over 12 years.

I applaud you for taking good care of her.

[WolfieL]

Thanks and nice to meet you Jessica Merriman,

I have been told about that belief too. I wish more of our countries Native Population roots had survived to this day as they had a better grasp on a lot of subjects than even we do today, plus they had a beautiful culture - each individual tribe. So much splendor squander and marginalized. Not to be controversial; I wish at the very least we would have given them the Mount Rushmore monument that was promised to them to spark more discussions of their treatment, and their culture.

Thank you . It seems like a really supporting site which is something I need right now more than most things. Everyone thus far has been very welcoming.

I am so sorry to hear that Jamie, I know how hard the fight is both for the person and for the family, writing stories about being a girl, kept me sane during the last procedure. I feel drained in every way and feel about 8000 years old.

Are there any other rules I should know about, I know to stay out of the significant other area,  however if I am interested (probably the wrong word [if I wanted to offer my support or talk from my perspective]) in how other aspects of the Trans* community may I participate in those boards. I will be respectful of course and I will review each post before posting it, I will also do my best to offer only relevant supportive data or responses. Or should I stick to the area's that are most applicable to me?

[Jamie D]

You're doing fine, Wolfie.

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[JenniferGreen]

Hi Wolfie,

welcome to the group.  I sympathise with you and your mum for what you are both facing.  I lost both my parents to cancer at a young age and have had to deal with my daughter having cancer as well.  Its a horrible thing to go through.  If you want to talk about it with me I am happy to be there for you.  I spend a lot of time in my local oncology department and have people who can give advice if you need it.

Jennifer

[WolfieL]

Thank you very much Jamie.


Jennifer, I am so sorry. I can not imagine that kind of pain if you ever need someone to talk to I am here too, thank you very much for your concern. I may need advice, the logistics of everything is mind bending.