Hi Rebis,
Welcome to Susan's , this is an awesome place, so supportive, helpful. I am 43 also and fairly new here. I am just discovering that I am a female in a male body. I don't have a girlfriend to worry about, but I do have a 14yr old son who I am not sure he could take his dad telling him that he is a female. The one thing that I am starting to learn is be true to yourself. I sincerely hope your girlfriend will come along this juorney with you. It is so nice to have someone close to you to support you through the many descisions we make along this path. I agree also that you should find a therapist to help you sort all of this out. I have a wonderful one and I don't know what I would do with out her. Please take care and I lokk forward to seeing more posts from you and possibly see you in the chat room.
Hugs,
Alena 🙂