I had a moment the ether day. I was thinking back why I waited so long, and then it hit me.
After high school, I was still working for Papa John's Pizza. I loved working there.
Two of my coworkers and I started renting a townhouse. Well, my one roommate was dumped after he proposed to his girlfriend.
A week or two latter, he jokenly asked if I wanted to have sex with him. It totally caught me off guard, and did the whole "I don't swing that way" bit, but in the back of my mind, I got excited.
Okay, so growing up I was never sexually attracted to boys or girls, and it not like I had ether asking me out ether. So when this happened I got scared. Because, my first time some one offered to have sex with me, was a boy and I wanted it, but if I wanted it, that would mean I was gay, even if I wanted to be a girl, right?
I never, had close friends, so I had no one to help me with my feelings, and just kinda slipped in denial for quite some time.
Now that I'm out, and on hrt have accepted the fact I want to be with boys. Boy do I feel stupid!
