Well, got a bummer message late last night, the ex-wife had more to do than she expected today and had to bow out of bringing me makeup shopping.
HOWEVER! I had thought about it so much until that point I was simply too excited to back down. I had a solid five hours of sleep and lately (like the last decade and a half
) that is simply an amazing night's sleep. So I got up and did my Pain Free exercises (by the way, this Marine Pete Egoscue wrote this book
Pain Free: A Revolutionary Method for Stopping Chronic Pain which I bought a couple years ago for some hip pain I had, I blew it off until I cared about life again after coming out,) hit the stationary bike, and texted the ex-wife for some last bits of advice and a confidence boost. She said try Suzie at ULTA who is a Lancome rep, and apologized she had not thought of ULTA until this morning. No problem to me, and since it meant a much shorter drive and to an area with a Lane Bryant I killed two bird with one KIA!
I got to Lane a few minutes before open per a few things I read on this WONDERFUL site, that it is often not busy and that can make first time buying experiences much easier and boy did it. I was in and out with only one other customer, and I got a pair of yoga pants and two camisoles for just bumming in around the house. Then I went to ULTA and I was confident on the outside, bolstered by the Lane experience, but still anxious on the inside. I asked for Suzie who was not there, got introduced to the Lancome rep who was there, who seemed a little uncomfortable but I think because I was requesting more than she felt skilled enough to help with. So she introduced me to Bre, who was in a lab coat and I think was called a makeup technician.
OH MY GOD! If you folks need someone to teach you about makeup while being totally awesome and caring, this is the person for you too! She rocked the house! And though I am still plenty closeted being only out to me, mom, dad, son, daughter, ex-wife, one cousin, and two best friends, a pair of Lane Bryant salespeople and Bre MY makeup specialist lol, and nervous about sharing my location I will still do it here. Because if you are in the Twin Cities, especially on the north end, message or email me if you need or want to try a new makeup person. If you have not ever used makeup I cannot tell you how perfect this woman will be for you as you will have to experience it yourself.
I to this point have had the most amazing day maybe ever, and certainly in a very very very long time. I blogged/journaled about it in much greater detail, but for where I am still at in my personal process my blog is completely private, and though I would like to share a photo to have everyone comment on what a neanderthal I am and that I should stick myself in an ugly hole while giving up this pursuit of honesty and happiness, I am sticking with one of my FAV youtuber inspirations (another Marine) Sona Avedian (you have to look up her youtube, especially if you need inspiration at the moment) and doing this for me not anyone else (as I think we all are) so I am keeping my pictures off the internet until I am ready to come out publicly and start HRT. I'd love to share more to help fellow newbies like me, and will if you want to build some rapport via email like MOST WONDERFUL Jessica Merriman has allowed me to do with her. YOU ROCK GIRL!! Jill, the makeover suggestion was a COMPLETE WINNER IDEA TOO! So you get karma as well (which reminds me, I have no idea how to give it out??)
P.S. Now I am about to risk my totally awesome day as I am going to bring my dad his mail pile that is growing to a dangerous level. He's been staying in touch on the phone, but I can tell he is nervous about visiting, as he is unsure about that coming out convo I had with him. I have to go out and get a makeup mirror anyways so I can practice with my new art supplies!!
Love you all!!!
