You know, transitioning can be hella hard sometimes. Sometimes it just feels like the opposition is tremendous and there are so many obstacles in the way. There are high points, but the lows can be debilitating. I know that this is a journey and like any journey you only get to the destination by putting one foot in front of the other and keep pushing forward. To get me through the rough spots though, I like to think about all the things I'm going to do once I've shed this old shell and started life anew.
As I was thinking today about all those things I'm going to do, I thought it would be fun to share and hear from others about what they plan to do as well. And so I present the "After My Old Self Kicks The Bucket List". I mean think about it, it's the best kind of bucket list because it doesn't revolve around your inevitable death, but around your rebirth as your genuine self!
These can be grandiose things or just the simple stuff. I'm probably going to just post one at a time when I feel really strongly about one of my goals for my new life. But feel free to post all of your bucket list at once if you want.
For my first bucket list item, I want to get all dressed up and gorgeous and go to a formal dance/party or "prom you never had" type event.
There is this little dress shop I drive past all the time on my way home from work. I've lived in this small town for the past 14 years and despite all the changes that shop has remained the same. It's not a big or extravagant shop, but it has a small town charm to it. In the window they often have 2-3 dresses on display. Before I accepted that I could transition... before I committed to becoming my true self, I would always wistfully look at those beautiful wedding and prom dresses and think "Oh how I wish I could be the lucky girl wearing that. Maybe in another life...".
Now though, as I slowly drive by the shop I think "Someday... someday I will be wearing a dress just like that." Someday I'll get to dress to the nines, have a gorgeous updo and be all smiling and happy, relishing in the moment. Someday I will have my moment to finally feel like the gorgeous woman I always wanted to be. And maybe I'll be asked to dance by some perfect gentleman who will sweep my off my feet and hold me close within his strong husky frame. And we will be among friends, all having a good time laughing at each other's jokes, enjoying the fine wine and each other's company. And there will be all this with no one questioning me or seeing me as anything other than the beautiful girl they know and love.
And that, is one of my dreams for my bucket list. How about you all?
