I just always wanted to be a boy, since I was a little kid, I liked to fight, I wanted to do boy things, so I got into sports, couldn't wait to cut my hair, hate my boobs, just want to look more masculine, far as penis, I would love to have one and I do want one, but with the way the surgeries are right now, I just don't want one, personal preference, if they can make a penis in a better way sure lol, I'm good with just using a prosthetic for now. I think a lot of people at first struggle with, well am I trans? I suggest going to a therapist to help clear your feelings over this, it might help you figure out your thoughts, cause for years I tried playing the straight cis gendered female role, trying to fit in and make others happy, but I never was, even had a bf and had sex with him, but it was always a disconnect, I never grew feelings and was unhappy even though to others it looked like I was. Its a lot of emotions and thoughts to process, so yeah therapist might help
