t, abuse history and sex drive

[Bombadil]

I am kinda drunk or else I wouldn't be making this post.

I really, really want to start T but there is one thing stopping me. It's the increased sex drive. I suppose to most guys that doesn't sound bad. To me, it's freaking terrifying. I don't have much of a sex drive and that's fine with me. I was abused by a family member most of my life. I don't like sex. Yes, I have a therapist and she's helped me tons. And i told her this is the only thing stopping me from wanting testosterone right now. I got her impute. I'm just wondering about you guys. Did you all get an increased sex drive? Can you umm... say anything about what that is like?

this shows how much I want this. I'm realizing that now. I've stuffed it down for about 30 years, but I want to live my life as a guy and to do that I'm finally going to have to face these fears/issues I have

[Kreuzfidel]

I'm sorry to hear that, tomboy.  I'm happy your therapist is helping you to work through these issues. 

Regarding T and sex drive - I must emphasise that not all guys experience the increase in sex drive.  There was a similar thread on here recently and quite a number of guys never had any change at all - and for some, it went the complete opposite direction. 

For myself, I did experience the increase.  I already had a very high sex drive pre-T and it intensified after starting it.  What it's like...well, it's not like I need to have sex all the time - the desire is simply stronger and I crave it more.  *shrug*  I don't really know how to describe it outside of that.

[Edge]

Tomboy, as you know I also experienced abuse and don't like sex. I've been on T for over five months now and I still have no sex drive to speak of.

[Bombadil]

thanks guys. it helps to hear that. I've got the names of some doctors now, so this could actually become a reality

it took me a bit to come back to this. I sort of regretted posted it, but seeing your responses really did help me. I guess if its something i really cant handle i can stop taking T.