i know exactly how determined you are to get that foul testosterone out of your system, i went to great lengths myself, i injected my testicles with alcohol and then tryed to surgically remove them myself. i know the desperation you are having, its overwhelming and i know you think if you just get rid of the testicles then your life will be so much better, but the matter of the fact if you aren't being upset about having testosterone in your system your gonna have the same self hate towards your penis, or something else, there will always be a new thing to worry about,
personally i think if you are willing to attempt something so unbelievably radical as berdizzo's, i think you should atleast go to your gp and tell them the great lengths you are willing to attempt just to reduce your testosterone, and ask them if you would be able to get some anti androgens, any gp that is willing to turn you away and just let you self mutilate is not doing there job
just remember that you will always have hurdles to jump and that after you complete one you will still feel like you just started, i am now on hrt and i am staring at my FFS like crazy and feel that my life will start when i get my ffs