There's a skater I've known for... I don't know how many years now. Eight? Nine? It's been a long time. I never felt any attraction. It was always, "Oh, he's a rad dude, and he has good style." (Style is a skateboarding term regarding the way a person moves). I just never had any interest in dudes. Now that I'm transitioning, it's another story. I was at the skatepark a few nights ago. I saw him, and -- "Oh!"
He's suddenly cute as can be! Just like before, I don't know what I would do with a boy crush. I don't know how I would fantasize a boy crush. Would I want to kiss him? I don't know that my sexuality's that developed yet. Maybe imagine sitting next to him, with my hands folded between my knees, batting my eyes at him? Aaaaaaah, he's so cute!!
