Hello everyone,
I started this new topic 'cause I thought it would be interesting discussing on this topic (dunno if someone did it before, and mainly under which point of view).
Well, I discovered to be a girl in a boy's body (or woman/man, I'm 32
)
I started to have this discovery settle down since June, so 6 months already. Still in the acceptance process, I guess, but I feel almost sure I'm a transgender girl. Finishing up my PhD, meanwhile (yep, Murphy's law).
Long story short, I always acted like a boy. Never imagined to be a girl. 2 years crisis. I think I'm gay, but no. I'm a girl
in with a boy's body, or MbF (Male-bodied-Female), as I said to some friend (few) of mine to whom I came out.
I'm in the process, and some days very happy to have discovered all this, in peace with myself, even if still is difficult to be 100% myself (and I feel very tiring).
The point is that today I acted like I'm... and I'm not happy. Ok, I spoke wit this girl that does not know about me, trying to release everything and be myself. It was weird, ok. But also something more was here...
I'm not happy to be a girl.
Maybe I never was. Ok, I unconsciously buried my femininity since I was 4, but maybe also because I didn't really like to be a girl?
I had interests similar to my male friends, I almost hated female groups (and still I do), and the "feminine stereotypical stuff" (yes, I should not talk about stereotypes, but... "destructuration"). Anyways...
I don't like to be a girl?
[updated] I didn't dislike to be a boy, but it is simply not what I am. And now I know, no way back.
Said so, I probably didn't like to be a girl! I don't know to which extent, etc. (never also tried to dress and go out as fully me - transgender girl)
The discussion is open. Don't have anything special to "solve" here, just talk and share. And support.
Please
Thanks everyone,
I.