it is hard and it gets easier a little, but it takes time, I went away for like a month, came back, told my family I was transgender lol I wouldn't recommend that, when you do come out. just its like pulling off a bandage, just do it, have you tried seeing a therapist first? it might help, i know it can cause depression, before I saw a therapist, I went into a bad depression over it, before I came out, once my friends found out though and my mom, it still wasn't easy, it takes time, but long as you keep pushing through, you will be alright, going to the gym became like a therapy for me, I been going almost every day now and it makes me feel better, it might help you, it helps me when I start becoming depressed