@kade1985 ..... been there, done that. As I said in an earlier post I was raised in a family with a violent threatening alcoholic. The first time I went into a depression, I couldn't tell others how I felt. I felt like I was in a dark hole ........ I knew I was in a dark hole ... ie., depressed, but couldn't climb out. My behavior became dysfunctional ........ one of the first things to go with most emotional problems is sex .... I stopped having sex with my wife. One day, I'd just had enough and walked out of my job. My wife went with me to a physician ...... she heard the diagnosis. But she was from a normal family ..... she was strong emotionally. People like that cannot understand ...... they think you are choosing to do what you do ...... the concept of not being in control of your thoughts is BS to them. So, after 7 years of marriage, she just walked out. You're going to run into this in life ....... stable people who had good parents and when you try to describe things to then, they are going to see it as personal nonsense.
Secondly ....... therapists ....... psychiatrists are only paid decent rates for drug therapy so that is what they do ....... don't expect much therapy from them ...... someone with a 4 year degree has enough training ....... meetings have usually last an hour ....... you should feel comfortable with them ...... BUT THEY CAN'T BE YOUR FRIEND ...... they've got to be helping you ..... I knew a very popular therapist ..... she was a good conversationalist and could make you laugh, but she really wasn't much help ....... so be careful ...... you'd got to feel comfortable enough to open up to them .......... but they have to be objective analysts and not just a shoulder to cry on
