Discovery

[ReaverMarcus]

Now I'd like to explain something first. Whenever I first joined Susan's (even though that was maybe a week ago) I had been looking around for quite a few days, reading and such. Even so, I have still been walking a razor thin edge of is this real or am I just thinking it?

Last night, I was physically attacked by my dad's bull (pretty much mine too). I've been thinking on it ever since cause the reason he attacked me is because I smell female due to the hormones that still go through my body. Now, here's what was going through my head after I found out I was lucky enough to just have bruising, that it shouldn't have happened cause I'm not suppose to be female.

In a way, the attack brought things to a clearer point for me. In my head, I'm already a male, but my body doesn't match and reminds me (usually with an annoying once a month visitor which wasn't here when this happened mind you) Anyways, I guess you could say that I'm feeling a bit more confident about thinking of telling some certain folks. Too bad I had to get hurt to gain it.

[Greeneyedrebel]

Sort of an "Ah-Ha" moment?

Mine was when my department moved to a new building...smack dab in corporate HQ land. The third day there, I managed to forget to take off the baseball cap that I wear everywhere. I used to wear it to work...pre HQ move. Someone whined to HR (because sometimes people just do that...pfffffttt) and my boss got called in to his boss.

The version my boss told me including "look around at the other women and what they wear so you can dress appropriately". He never said a word about me wearing the hat...even though he saw me about 10 times before the whining began.

So a corporate HQ.....right. My brain said it was panic time and I about lost it. To me, the boss was saying that I couldn't wear my pressed khaki pants and button downs with a tie or vest now and then and my awesome new shiny wingtips etc.

I managed to bump into his boss in the parking lot as I was headed to lunch, still with my head in panic mode. And I asked the boss's boss. His answer? "You forgot the hat, and someone whined."

Me: "So the actualy clothes are fine?"
Him: "Yep." *puzzled look* "Why wouldn't they be?"

So AH HA time.....when the mere inkling of a thought that I might have to wear something remotely resembling what the majority of "professional" women in a corporate HQ with a "business casual" dress code wear leads to sheer panic/panic attack. NO bruises though, at least not physical ones.

[Jason C]

My epiphany-like moment came when I looked at myself after using mascara to make fake facial hair. Talk about weird, haha. I think sometimes, the most random things can make a lightbulb go on in your head, and suddenly things make more sense or you suddenly know what direction you need to go in. It's definitely a good thing

Shame about you getting hurt though, least it wasn't too bad. I once had a one-eyed horse crush me against the stable, haha. Animals are great

[meganB]

Have two sort of ah-ha moments.

The first one is that when I young I always really liked my best male friend (he still is my best male friend). When I knew that I was a girl born in a boy's body it became clear that I had crush on him and that I saw myself as a girl with him.

Second one was with one of my best female friends. She doesn't trusts boys/men. She however trusted me completely, even though when I met her and became friends with her I still lived as boy and not completely aware that I felt that I'm a girl and not a boy. She even ranted once about how all boys/men are pigs and untrustworthy with me being next to her. When she said it two weeks ago it was quite the ah-ha moment, both for me and for her

[Dee Marshall]

Mine was when researching transgender to better support a client who's a trans-man. Imagine my surprise when I saw myself in what I was reading after more than 4 decades of clueless groping.