Hybrid Trans or something who I am.

[Larisa]

First part of this is why I wouldnt go through hrt or sex change surgery. My family, friends and all know me as a guy and Im not gonna make it all akward for them plus Id miss the guy side of me. Ive become and realized after a long time Im a hybrid guy. Half boy/half girl brained. I respect any girl who has the surgery to become a full girl but I can't plus I hate surgery a ton. I am yes transgender sort of and not ashamed of it. My jaw for example would need to be adjusted some. That partly transgender and Im also very self-consious of my looks to. My hair however is growing out long and with lots of vitamins and such, it's slowly coming thick and unbald in places again.

I believe in heaven, hell, god and jesus and I also believe it's much similar to say like heaven is for real for example says so, not some religious thing. That being said, Ive told some even though no one knows Im trans at all, Ive said like the jaw adjustment surgery Ill have in heaven. If Im to live out in heaven as a girl forever, hmm I dont know. I am not able to say yet so far.

I also still plan on in the future of having facial hair completely removed along with rest of my hair on my arms and chest as I didnt have success at it like I hoped killing the hair myself. I have had success with soy milk in slowing facial hair but I havent used it in awhile. Ive been able to understand this about me and I do like girls, not guys even though I have a brain partly girl, Im like that able to know myself well. Ive matured on this and am able to do this without answers much unlike when I came here looking for answers constantly. I dress up and all now and then and have a girly wardrobe and all and Im not ashamed of who I am. I hope this all makes since and Ive written alot here before off and on about this and I also want to say if your trans and getting hrt and surgery or are not to, Im proud of yall. Be yourself!!!

[jaybutterfly]

I think the term for this is bigender. You feel you have more than one gender you express in other words.


The heaven thing (though I personally can't relate) is interesting in itself. You're saying you don't necessarily want to transition? I'm in a similar boat. My main turn off is that there's not enough technological advancements that mean I can shift flawlessly with complete control of my appearance and keep my ability to have my own children. It's each to their own Some people don't transition for family and friends, just like you. The important thing is to love yourself The jaw for you is like the hips for me. I'm that V shape that the weightlifters and the olympic swimmers have, but I want my shoulder width a lot lower down haha.

Just remember: a 'girl brain' doesn't really determine your sexuality. Hence why we have bio-girls who like other girls

It seems you've gotten yourself to a pretty good place as far as personal growth has gone. I'm still working my way there at the moment myself, but it's always a relief to know there are others out there doing well with this All the best

[Ltl89]

I'm glad you have found your path. Not everyone needs to transition or take the same steps that other people take.  Just do what you feel is best for you as an individual.  I'm not really sure about the after life, I have my own feelings and doubts surrounding that topic, but regardless of one's feelings, I think we should seek out happiness as best as we can in this life. In any case, I agree with your message on being yourself.  That's all that matters.

It's funny, I'm terrified of surgery too in a very big way, but I can't see myself avoiding SRS.  I've had surgery in that area before and it's not fun at all and the idea of something even more painful is just horrifying, but I feel compelled to do it sometime down the road.  I wish it were easier though.  Like magic instead of a surgery, lol.