Hi everyone my name is Evelyn and I'm a transgender. My journey towards change started when I was 5 when I started realizing that there was something different abut me. What was it? I wasn't happy with how I was, I didn't know how to describe it as I was only 5 at that time. As the years went by I became more and more depressed and I started shutting myself off to the world, I had no friends at all and I tried to commit suicide at the age of 10. I had a rough life and a hard one too as my parents were really religious, well accept for my mum shes not so fanatical compared to my dad. One day I came across this video on YouTube and I was watching some doctor explaining about MtF and Ftm transitions, so I watched it and I discovered what hormones could do and how they changed peoples lives. They all looked so happy and since then I knew what I wanted. I decided to open up to my closest uncle and to my discovery he wasn't that shocked he took it quite well. He and me soon went to speak to Mum and dad. Dad didn't take it well at all and slapped me on the spot and kicked me a couple of times after hitting me across the jaw when I fell. Mum was speechless as she tried to process what had just happened and dad shoved my uncle out of the house. He continued beating me every other day ever since I came out. Mum on the other hand came to room one night and we had a really long talk, she asked me if this is what I really want, so I said I was sure about my decision. The next day mum and me went to see a therapist, in Australia! My therapist's name was Jenny, so we started talking about how Ive felt for the past few years and I started crying ad such and then mum cried then I cried again and I think the therapist almost cried XD. So during the session Jenny told me that LGBT rights in My country were not so good and that it could bring me lots of problems if I were to transition at a later stage and it was best if I did it now, If I wanted to. Well of course I did but my family didn't have that much money in the first place. So mum told me that If I wanted to she would do whatever she could to make me happy, I bawled my eyes out when she said that. Thus my journey to transition began. Where I live is Malaysia as you know they didn't take this very kindly and they called for a court case. Mum had to fight for my rights a lot and had many letters from the therapists stating that I have a gender identity disorder and that I needed treatment the case went on and on and on, finally mum won however they said id still have to go to the same school. I was going to a boys school so yeah... lots of problems would come my way. After a few months I finally started my hormones in 2009 when I was 11. I was over the roof however the therapist sent a letter to my school stating that I was undergoing HRT so I was called to the principles office and had to explain everything. I also had to go on stealth for a while. Soon everyone in school knew about me and I felt really embarrassed lots of them laughed at me and started bullying me. After a year on hormones I looked started seeing who I was, it was the day after new year and the first day of school. I was allowed to keep my hair long and finally got permission to wear a girls uniform. During recess a couple of boys came my way pinned me to the lockers and started groping me where they shouldn't. I didn't like it at all. I shouted for my life and a few other guys came round and helped me fight off the grope gang. I went home cried and told mum what happened. Two years went by with not many problems then the day came. I went home and mum called me into the room with dad. He hasn't spoke to me in years till today. So he said only one thing... 'Son.. I Disown you'. I was like wow just wow and went into depression again. So mum told me that this was the bad news. So I was like 'huh? So whats the good news?'
Mom then said.. You're getting a sex change. I fainted... Two months after that I started surgery on the 1-10-2010. And the second one on 3-11-2010. Finally.. finally after all those years of torture and madness here I stand proud and strong! However I ask that you guys wish me luck cos im going for a VFS next week! Thus completing my dreams! So there you go MtF from Ethan to Evelyn. I now still go to a boys school and im happy as ever! And i decided to join this place to try to learn from people and at the same time help those who are in need of any help. So that's all for now, Ill see you guys around!
xoxo~ Evelyn
