Dysphoria Triggers?

[Kara Jayde]

Hi all! This may be a strange topic, but I was wondering what specifically triggers/triggered your dysphoria on a daily basis (or more, what intensifies/intensified it)? I ask because I am trying to compile a list of elements that make it easier to explain gender dysphoria to those who are interested/do not understand. We all know it isn't as simple as 'stuck in the wrong body' (it's the right body, wrong features, if anything) so I'm trying to have it make sense for friends who I come out to with more examples outside of my own. These would be different depending on where in transition you are, but examples I have at the moment (pre-transition / mtf ) are:

• Looking in the mirror after waking up in the morning.
• Noticing body hair in general
• Becoming aware of the depth of your voice while speaking
• Becoming aware of feminine behaviour while presenting/pretending to be male
• Becoming aware of masculine behaviour you've adapted from years of assimilating
• Receiving clear markers of attraction from people you run into day to day, and realizing they are attracted to the specific features you hate (masculine features, for example)
• People that use gender specific terms when you're not expecting them (for example, when you're in a feminine mood/mode) such as 'sir, man, dude, bro, etc...
• Feeling uncomfortable with people looking at you while talking to you because you're considering what they're seeing (which isn't 'you')
• Sex (for me anyway). 
• Talking to women and becoming aware of the sexual tension caused by the fact that you're the 'opposite gender'
• Having women talk to you like a man, in general
• Having men talk to you like a man, in general

I'm hoping you can help me add to the list? ^_^

[Dee Marshall]

All of your list except sex, I like sex. (Although I'm not enamored of penetrative sex and really get off on helping my partner have a good time. I understand that can be a sign in and of itself.)

Growing my beard out for a really good reason and cringing every time I see or touch it.

Seeing a picture of myself now and realizing that I look pretty good as a man. I just shouldn't!

Seeing a picture of myself at 16 and realizing that, barring the scraggly mustache I had at that age, I looked like a pretty cute girl.

Dee

[FalseHybridPrincess]

yeap nice list

[Greeneyedrebel]

This youtube video makes me somewhat uncomfortable. I'm a big fan of ASMR role play video's, they are very relaxing on the whole, but this roleplay involving getting fitted for a bra, just doesn;t sit quite right with me. I guess it brings to the fore my feelings of feeling like a fraud next to cis women.

I've never had a bra fitting becasue I feel like a fraud for having boobs. Like they belong to someone else and I really wish they would come take them back already........

[Skyler]

Looking at a mirror or reflection i absolutely can not do it...also the fact that my binder doesn't flatten my chest as much as i like when i put it on, don't get me wrong its way better with it but sitll...

[Kara Jayde]

This youtube video makes me somewhat uncomfortable. I'm a big fan of ASMR role play video's, they are very relaxing on the whole, but this roleplay involving getting fitted for a bra, just doesn;t sit quite right with me. I guess it brings to the fore my feelings of feeling like a fraud next to cis women.

I think the reason that video causes dysphoria (for me as well) is because she is almost flirting, her voice is a whisper, and she's in full on sultry mode. Stop flirting with me woman, I just want a bra!

[Carrie Liz]

-Definitely looking at myself in the mirror in the morning... hair's always mangled, short, thin, and frizzy, facial skin oily and pore-heavy and uneven, no bra to perk the girls up into a feminine shape, baggy comfortable night clothes that more or less hide my shape and make me look mannish... just in general feeling like I'm still just a guy who dresses up like a girl, and only feminine once I'm completely dressed, instead of actually being a girl 24/7.

-Every time I'm looking at the back of my head and still able to see a patch of scalp.

-Whenever I see pretty much anyone between the ages of 10 and 12, who hasn't gone through puberty yet.

-Teenage girls. Grr...

-Whenever I'm having a "girl talk" with another woman and she does that crazy upward-inflection thing where her voice suddenly gets a full octave higher, and I realize that I can't do that.

-Girls singing anything in the soprano range, or with a pure beautiful unchanged tone that I can't replicate. Damn it...

-Women with small children, just seeing the joy on their faces, seeing how connected they are with their child. Sigh...

-Any woman with long, beautiful, thick hair. Triple points if they're trans. Lucky b****es.

-Kim Petras

[Kara Jayde]

Thanks for that Carrie! I saw a little girl today on the bus and my dysphoria kicked in, oddly enough. I started missing the idea of growing up as a female, only having experienced it as a male, and also how content her mother was/ how she was doting on her daughter.

Btw, I ran into your videos on youtube yesterday, and I have to say, you pass 100%, you look and sound great  

[luna nyan]

For me it's whenever I hear a recording of my voice. :/