my apology and stuff

[jussmoi4nao]

Okaay so in light of recent stuff that some of you may have seen i just wanted to say sorry, real quick.

I feel like I came off as a person I don't want to be like and it's hard not to slip into that...well, let's just say it, bitter, b-chy, snide type person, lately, and I don't want you all to see that side of me, or anyone for that matter,cuz yeah. I don't think that's me. Or at least it's not the part of me I want to be.

So. From now on...because frankly, I'm a bit unstable atm and can't be shutting off any support i can get, with everything I'm dealing with...but from now on I'm going to try to be more positive on other peoples topics and a little more tactful. I really do enjoy helping people if I can becaaause yeah. I know what its like to struggle and I know even if sometimes even if I'm saying what I really feel, maybe the person is getting enough of that already? And its just best for me to just shut up cause they don't need a snarky little twat telling them what's what.

But yeah. Don't wana make this overlong, cause at the end it's just a website, but hey you're all real people in the end and I know I may have triggered some of you. I'm gonnaget help. I mean I have help, but I'm gonna get...more helpful help lol. But in the meantime I'm gonna try to help otherss if I can!because that makes me happy, actually soo yeh. See y'all around

[jussmoi4nao]

Also, thank you to you people who messaged me, very sweet, thank you a ton! I'll try to respond when my brain works better.

[Ms Grace]

No need to apologise, Abby. You've been going through some tough times...most of us do from time to time... the important thing is to reach out and get help when you need it. People on this forum care for you and have been worried for you - I'm just glad you're feeling better. A lot of people here really like you (myself included) and want you to have a happy fulfilled life...and you can! BTW, check out the "crush" thread because I'm pretty sure you've won it hands down, if not a close second.

[Ltl89]

Abby,

Please stop apologizing.  If some people don't agree or don't like what you say, it doesn't make you a bad person.  You've never come on here with the intention or pupose of hurting others.  All you have done is share your own hurt.   Maybe others will see it differently and/or you feel the need to say this, but I don't want you to have to say sorry for everything.  I've done that my whole life, always making sure I meet their expectations and needs, never considering what my own were.  Please don't take everything to heart because in the end you don't have a bad one despite any perceived flaws you feel you may have.  I don't agree with everything you say or feel, but that doesn't mean you owe me or anyone else an apology for having those views.  Just my take.

In any case, I'm glad you are back.  I'm sorry to stand up for you in a big sisterly kind of way, but there is something about you that reminds me of myself at an earlier age.  I guess I'm trying to stand up for her when I couldn't in the past.  Maybe I'm too skewed for this reason.  Tangent aside, I hope you find the help that you need and enjoy your stay here on the site.  Many of us need support (look at me the biggest screw up of all lol) so there is no shame in getting it here).  Nice to see you back.

[Michelle69]

Don't apologize for for having a personality baby. If I did that, I would never get anything done. Keep us old mother hens in check and be proud.

[jussmoi4nao]

Welll the apology is kinda for me okay? Cuz I needa remind myself that I don't have to be like that. Cuz I have a very volatile side and I blame people for my problems and I just get very nasty and tbh hat was toned down compared to the things I've said to family and friends...it would make your skin crawl.

I think tho some people took it personally and you shouldn't. I think blaming others helps me not blame myself so its a coping mechanism cuz otherwise I do some messed up stuff to myself. But anyway I'm trying to be more positive soo yeah. Thanks for the support darlins

[jussmoi4nao]

And, hah, Ms Grace, funny. Guess they like em feisty ahaha xD

[xponentialshift]

Glad to see you're back Abby! I was worried when you said you were leaving and didn't make another post... I definitely enjoy reading your posts, even the "bad" posts as they really give perspective to a lot of the sides of transition that many people wouldn't want to show.

Welcome back and I hope the ride is a bit smoother for you this time around!

[kelly_aus]

Nice to see you back, Abby.

[Christine Eryn]

Everybody has their good and bad days. This place is one of comfort to a lot of people, including myself. Hang in there! 

[sad panda]

Hay gurl. Welcome back (:

*hella supportive hugs*

You know I'm always here <3

[stephaniec]

welcome

[TerriT]

I am glad you didn't leave forever.

[Cindy]

Hugs Hon.

We all  have bad times, it comes with the territory