Reading a pretty awesome book right now by Max Lucado entitled "you'll get through this" - hope and help for your turbulent times. It's a Christian based book on the bible and it's teachings for people on how to get thru difficult and desperate times on in ones life.
As some may know, I recently lost my job about two weeks ago, and without it being said, it was because my boss discriminated against me based on my being transgender. In right to work states, the employer really doesn't need much of a reason to dismiss an employee and can cite many a varied reasons if they want, which is what he did. It was very difficult and hard on me, and brough me very close to ending it all. Five months ago I fully came out to my immediate family (wife and 2 daughters) after many years of playing the back-n-forth game of "I can stop, but knowing it will never go away". They didn't accept the news well, and ever since has been plagued with almost utter silence and abusive language when anything is communicated. Also to add to the despair, we are divorcing in the coming months.
So, all that made for a pretty dark period for a few days and is still touchy even weeks later. My mom and my therapist have been instrumental in seeing me thru this and doing nothing extreme.
I know sometimes biblical readings and the Christian way of thinking don't inter-mix well with being transgender, but this book is so much more, and it's really helped. I also want to thank those here at Susan's for their support and shared thoughts during my rou times.
