I'm scared and here's why. I'm at the point where I have come out to literally everybody I know and I feel I've been making good progress in my transition. Here's the problem. I've started passing while still in guy mode which may seem like a good thing, but here's the problem. I haven't worked on my voice. I'll walk up to the register at a store and they'll say, "will that be all ma'am," but I don't know what to say. If I talk back, either it sounds like I'm whispering, or I sound like a guy and they get confused as hell and every one in the line goes silent and stare like they're ->-bleeped-<-ing body snatchers in some horror movie. And if I just nod and smile, I seem like a bitch. The nodding and smiling works and they gender me as female, but I can tell they think I'm an ->-bleeped-<-.
I just don't know what to do. I know I should have started working on my voice earlier, because this is just awkward. Like having kids stare at you while you are talking to friends because they're confused. It's just so weird and makes me uncomfortable. I used to hate going out because I would get gendered male, but now that I get gendered female, it's become really awkward to go out. For example, I was out with my friend and having a good time at Starbucks, but as soon as I open my mouth, the stares begin. And they don't stop. It's like the whole time everybody keeps shooting glances at me. Even if I stare back at them they don't stop. It's like I'm some science experiment and they are all trying to figure me out. What frustrates me is that I came out to my entire highschool and literally everybody has been super supportive, but as soon as I step into the "real world" people get their panties all up in a bunch. This is all soooooo freaking frustrating. What do I do while I'm working on my voice? I want to ignore them but it's so hard and I can't just stop talking.
