I'm sorry to hear your country is so oppressive and has placed you in such a dangerous situation - both in terms of your freedom and health. Spiro and Androcur may both have anti-androgenic properties but they are different drugs and will effect your physiology differently - the same dose of one is definitely not in anyway the same as the other. Discussion of self-medication is not allowed on this site, and besides, as I'm not a doctor I couldn't begin to guess at why you're now responding differently. Personally, I had some limited sexual function when I was in Androcur but have none on Spiro. Are there no organisations or doctors that operate below the radar for trans people in your country?