Copied from my tumblr because I'm lazy:
So. I did it. Or rather my manager did, but same difference really. I'm now out to the two hundred+ people I work with and all of our instructors. I was sitting in the theatre absolutely terrified, two of my friends that knew either side of me and surrounded by friends and people who knew that something was going to be said about me but not what. There were quite a lot of staff just gathered around me as well, which was quite odd. During the presentation I was ->-bleeped-<-ting it, but then when it got to the very end and the slide went up with "one final point" on it I almost bottled it. I actually took my heartrate then, and no word of a lie, it got up to 192bpm. I thought I was going to die. I can't remember much of him actually giving the talk, I sort of completely zoned out for a good half of it, all I can remember was someone from the row behind where the two main guys who knew something was going on where sat putting their hand on my shoulder and not knowing which one of them it was. I didn't want to turn around and make myself more obvious.
Then it was over, everyone was leaving and I was hunting through my pocket for the ->-bleeped-<- I'd rolled in preparation. All of my mates were saying how brave I was etc and pointing out that they wouldn't hold back when we fought now. I was just moaning about needing nicotine and my heartrate. We avoided the main smoking area and went to another one where they all apologised if they slipped up with pronouns etc (they're all about 50-50 at the moment which is fine by me, as long as people are making an effort I'm happy), and we just started joking about if I ended up with a bigger penis than they had. I got a text from someone as well while I was there saying that they were going to support me 100% and it was all really positive.
Went back into the building and got my single man room unlocked and moved into there, and then went to the shops to get some stuff and so I could use the toilet in McDonalds because I thought it was best to give it time to sink in for some people. I still haven't been here actually, but all of the people who brought it up have been fine about it so far. It's great.
TW for the one bit of nastiness that has happened.
There's only been one person who's been a prick that I've heard of. He hasn't said anything to me, I actually got the wrong guy to start with when I was getting told about it, but he's run down the corridor to my room, got a snapchat video of my name on the door, and then run back to the kitchen laughing and singing "he-she he-she" with someone else. The comment on the video was "He used to be called [birthname] hahahahaha". I'm still debating whether or not to leave it for now or mention it when I'm in a meeting with my manager tomorrow because I'm sure he's going to ask about how tonight's gone. Part of me doesn't want to make a huge fuss right now, I'm really not that bothered, it's two people in two hundred, but I also know that it's probably better to stamp it out straight away rather than let people get away with it. I've taken a video of the snapchat (idiot put it on his story), so I have proof if I do mention it and he asks to see it. I'm thinking that I will mention it because it's his snapchat story, so potentially outing me to people who haven't yet met me.
Other than that everyone's been brilliant.
