The more into HRT to achieve my ideal androgony, more I want to go all the way.

[Evelyn K]

I'm pretty much there but actually at 13 mo. because I am on low-dose. In fact I've recently tapped the brakes and dropped another quarter of my E off because... I don't want or want to explain boobs. lol.

Except that greatly facilitates that transition both internally and externally.  It encourages and reenforces that decision as opposed to the great dissonance of having to hide in your own house and avoid mirrors.  I suppose those who feel the strongest about it, who feel the dysphoria the most could (and can) be fine with living as an oafish woman. That is what they did before hormones and surgery.

It is a bit of a rabbit-hole, the further along you get and the more passable and the more comfortable with inhabiting a woman's body and mannerism, the further you want to go. 

Concurred. Which is what's actually happening to me... succinctly, I reiterate:

"Unfortunately no ... for Evelyn K, the degree of positive change advances directly my desire to become the change."

Your rabbit-hole description is right on. I love it. I guess the only issue is how you get out of the rabbit hole once your in it.

[Sarah84]

Hi. I just want to say you are not alone. I am in a similar situation. I have never had a great deal of dysphoria nor feeling "female in male body". I really don't know what it means to feel like a male or female. Of course my body is male, so in that point of view I always felt as male, but it was knowing based on the observation of my body. Besides this fact, I am probably androgynous/non-binary, I don't like extreme feminine presentation nor masculine(this one I hate more). However I always wanted to become a woman physically.
I am on hrt and I love the effects and changes. I can't remember any thing that I liked about my male body, but now after I am building more feminine features I love all of them. I think that my goal is to be non-op, but the reason for this is my wife and family.

[Evelyn K]

I want to go non-op because I personally don't feel the risk to myself is worth it. It's major surgery.

Castration is a possibility for hormonal supplementation health reasons.

Since I'm allergic to men (women are my weakness), I feel this may be best for me.

[Sarah84]

I want to go non-op because I personally don't feel the risk to myself is worth it. It's major surgery.

Castration is a possibility for hormonal supplementation health reasons.

Since I'm allergic to men (women are my weakness), I feel this may be best for me.

You are right about the health risk associated with SRS. I am not sure if I would really go for it. But because family reasons(I have wife that I love and I am not planning to leave her and she doesn't like the SRS idea) and the fact that I am demisexual it is not a big concern for me.

[JamesG]

Who are you calling oafish?

Not you sweetie.