Giving In..

[carrie359]

Well I let any male fight go completely today.. it was over anyway and I knew therapy today would just cement my transition.
I was fighting myself because of the reality of losing my wife but its not fair to her for me to live a lie and I would not make it as a guy much longer anyway.
She needs a Guy..
Anyway it sure feels good to accept what I have always known.
So, the transition plan is on and one day at a time.
My wife and I will be best friends and work together and love each other but will not live together.
Time to move on and heal the loss we are both experiencing.
All will be ok and I am so happy to be moving forward I am being true to myself.
Carrie

[Jessica Merriman]

 

So sorry to hear you will lose your wife. I am glad she is still being friends with you though. No one in life should have to make the choices we do to live comfortably and as the true us. I hope things go well for you and happiness abounds. 

[mrs izzy]

I wish to give you and your wife a Hug.

Life does go on after the loss.

Izzy

[Ltl89]

Hey Carrie,

I've been following your transition, so I know how hard it was for you to reach this decision.   Now that you've settled on transitioning for good, it at least may give you peace of mind to know what your path will be rather than feeling torn.  It will likely be hard, but if this is what you really want and feel you need then you can't beat yourself down for it.  Remember, everyone is here for you during this process.  I wish both you and your wife nothing but the best in your new futures. 

[stephaniec]

good luck , the undertow is quite powerful

[JulieBlair]

Thank You Carrie,

It is harder than hard to let go.  I made the mistake of trying to hang on too long.  The result was the same only with more pain.  Love to you both,

Julie

[carrie359]

OMG,
Thanks Girls,
I am there for you too.. I have learned a lot from everyone here.. I hope I can help others..
Life is good. I am glad to still be here.. been hard.. I may come out publicly one day to help others.. for now just going to work on being real.. the future will get here soon enough.
I am grateful and have found that the good in humanity far outweighs the bad.. love is much stronger than hate..
Love ya All
Carrie

[Sincerely Tegan]

Congratulations for your positive attitude. I am sorry that this acceptance comes with such a heavy price. I wish the best for you, I truly do.

Teg

[Satinjoy]

We are all here for you.  So sorry, its such a hard thing for all of us to be who we are.

[fusstangtroy]

starting on your journey is cool thing .Losing a wife is high price but you will maintain her as friend that knows how you tick .Thats great thing for you because she will give you honest feed back on somethings where others may not...Over time i hope she will see how positive it has been for you and pick up relationship again (fingers crossed).I wish the best for you .AKA Sara 

[suzifrommd]

Early on, I was very upset at the possibility of losing my marriage. Now that we're apart and I'm a girl, I'm happier than I've ever been before.

I wish the same for you, dear.