A farewell of sorts

[Hayley]

So I have decided that I am going to leave the site for a while. I had already told a few people who I talk with that I am doing so. I feel a bit awkward announcing it like this. I mean I hardly participate on here and even when I do there isn't much I add. The main reason I am leaving is that things have been going very well for me. Every step I take is a positive one. People are getting more accepting of me and I am not having issues with family anymore. I do know that I am happy with the time I spent here and the help it has provided. I don't think I would be much help around here and that is why I hoping off. If anyone cares to stay in contact my Facebook and email are in my profile. I won't stop talking to people who care to talk.

Life is a positive thing for me for the first time in forever. Actually waking up is not something I dread these days. I am happy to see the sun in the morning. I realized something over this past weekend. I am not fulltime and I personally don't feel like I pass very well in general. But I was out all weekend completely as myself. No boy mode at all. I am sure people knew and noticed. But no one said anything or misgendered me. That is when I finally figured out it doesn't matter if I pass or not as long as I am happy and comfortable with myself other people do not care. They are wrapped up in themselves. I mean this isn't profound and I am sure I am far from the first to say it or that I will be the last.  No matter what happens in the future I know that I am better off today then I was any time before now. Self-acceptance has finally hit me and my lies to myself about being happy have finally came true. I am truly happy with live moving forward as I grow into a more balanced individual. I don't need to hide behind sarcasm and jokes. I don't need to wear hats down to nearly my eyes. All I need to do is walk with my head up and chin held high looking forward at the world that I am happy to finally be a part of.

Thank you everyone who has taken the time to read this and for everyone who has given me words of encouragement. I really needed that at the time. I love you girls. Good luck to everyone in the future if we don't speak again.

Hayley <3

Ps sorry if my rambling makes little sense I was never much of a writer

[RosieD]

Happy travels Hayley. I very much wish you the best and hope that things just keep on getting better and better.

Rosie

[Rachel]

Farewell and good luck.

Stop by some time.

[stephaniec]

good luck

[Ms Grace]

It's great things are going so well for you. I do hope though you can still drop in from time to time to share that progress and you'll find it might help lift someone else who is struggling. It's always good for people to read positive stories on a support forum. All the best!

[Heather]

Hi Haley I don't think I've responded to one of your posts before. But I'm someone who is in a better place than when I first started. I haven't come on the site for support in so long I can't remember. But I still come on the site because I feel I'm in a place where I can lend support to those coming up behind me. Maybe that would be the type of role you could play on the site. You don't have to be in need of support to come on here. Anyways I wish you all the best in your life and your transition.

[JulieBlair]

It seems to me that most folks are here for a while, have their questions and fears answered, make some friends and move on.  That is as it should be.  Good luck and Godspeed.
Julie

[Hayley]

Thanks for the well wishes everyone. And I am sure I won't be leaving forever and I'll be sure to check in every so often. Giving support is something I may be able to do in the future but for now I'm going to be very self centered and focus on my own crazy whirlwind I call life... Ok that sounds kind of jerky. I think what I'm trying to say is I'll be around and hopefully I'll be able to be a supportive member here after I get myself to a place where I can help others. Ah... Well I don't know but yeah anyway bye for now everyone! Keep being your awesome selves!!

[Jessica Merriman]

See you on Facebook Sis! I am so proud of what you have accomplished.

[Ltl89]

Hayley,

I wish you all the luck as you move forward.  You may not realize this, but you helped me once at a time that I was very down.  I won't forget that.  I hope everything lives up to your dreams and that you are very happy in your new life. 

[Hayley]

Ok so I know it was only like 5 days since I declared that I was leaving here. I realized that despite doing pretty well with things that I felt I was missing out by not acknowledging the family here. I love you girls and despite my limited post count I noticed that not being here felt like I had forgotten something. Anyway I am sure I'll go thru waves of crazy that implies me disappearing for a bit but yeah sorry for being all "leavie" but yeah back and stuff.

[stephaniec]

Ok so I know it was only like 5 days since I declared that I was leaving here. I realized that despite doing pretty well with things that I felt I was missing out by not acknowledging the family here. I love you girls and despite my limited post count I noticed that not being here felt like I had forgotten something. Anyway I am sure I'll go thru waves of crazy that implies me disappearing for a bit but yeah sorry for being all "leavie" but yeah back and stuff.

a big warm welcome

[Christinetobe]

Welcome back Hayley!

[Allyda]

Yes, a big welcome back Hayley!

Hugs,

Ally

[LordKAT]

Susan's is addicting, in a good way. Too many friends to just walk away.

[justpat]

   Welcome back girl ! Some times it is good for us to take a break for a few days and just chill.Then the best thing is when you return and people say hi and welcome back.Kinda makes you feel good inside .    Patty

[Ms Grace]

Glad to see you back - sometimes people just need a bit of time out to recharge and then they're ready to roll, sounds like you're recharged!

[Ltl89]

Glad you're back.  I know how you feel about the site and missing everyone.  That's why these people can't get rid of me even if they tried, lol. I'm happy to see you back again.